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Day 15 of 366 (Pic spazzzin)

2012-01-15T11:53:00.000+08:00

Day 15 of 366. Nothing much done till now, just stay and home and do stuff. Stuff, means kemas rumah, sapu lantai, vacuum, mop, jaga adik, tengok tv, online and makan. That's quite summarising my summer holiday. Been home for about 1 month and a week, berat belum naik so far so I'm happy! Teehee~

2011 passed by so fast. Tak terasa langsung. Tup-tup dah mid Jan 2012. Dah dekat setahun since we left Malaysia for Sydney. Setahun yang cepat berlalu, and I bet the remaining year pun akan berlalu this fast. So sad, isn't it? Good thing will eventually end one day, we need to accept that. But 2011 sure did leave a meaningful memory. Lots of thing learned, intentionally and not.

For 2011 who just left, I really treasure what you've brought :)

#1 Departure day 10 Jan 2011.

#2 Ini housemates. 158 love :)

#3 Canberra trip. In front of Aussie Parliament house.

#4 Pantai near Newport

#5 One of the classes in Newport Public School. Cantik. I want a classroom like this too :)

#6 Blue Mountain trip. First time jumpa kangaroos. They look like big rats hee

#7 Family En. Zahari. Anak-anak dia comel-comel!

#8 Parcel of love. From Malaysia <3

#9 Mommy so cute worrying bout me. Mom, I eat well! :)

#10 Choc spree in Tasmania!

#11 Aloonah

#12 This is a place I couldn't remember the name :(

#13 Ini Anis :)

#14 Hobart city

#15 Aloonahh

#16 My very first kpop concert. Everyone was so pretty and handsomee!

#17 Me and my new shades kbai

#18 50AUD official t-shirt. And we looked like the organisers :O

#19 The highlight of above all. 081211, balik kampung!

Dear 2012, please be kind to me. I'll work harder :)

Light.

2011-07-07T20:57:00.006+08:00

138 days in Australia and this is my first update. Sorry, but this is the result of having another blog. I left this one rusty and spiderweb-coated.

Being overseas is a good thing, and I like it here. The weather’s not too different from Malaysia (minus the winter hee). Have been to quite places, but now, during this winter break, someone needs to stop travelling, stop shopping and stop googling good eating places in Sydney. And that someone is me! I am now staying quietly, like really quietly at home, that I can almost hear my heartbeat. Yes, to that extend.

But…

Hell no, I’m going out to Gungho later. Kekeke! I just don’t wanna miss the opportunity eating Malaysian cuisine in Sydney. I’ll stay home after I really got what I want :D though it’s gonna take forever.

The reason why I’m writing this entry is, after like months of ignoring this blog, somebody still call me the brilliant writer. Wuhuuu. Too much of compliment, but I guess it makes me think to write in this blog again. Thanks! But still, I need to have a good something to write about.And I want to write it short.

I’m gonna write about how living overseas making me see people from a different light. Friends, specifically.

Months away from family, and all we had are friends, make me realize how important friends are. And from what I can see here too, there are still people who friend for benefits, so don’t blame me for continuing disliking people. I continue disliking certain people because they continue to do the things I dislike. That’s all. To the certain someone who really really really pushed my wrong button, I despised you! What I really want right now is for you to turn into a chicken kekeke~

Despite everything, I am grateful of the people around me now. Besides everybody, I specifically have the Bambas, and a new friend who loves me and also someone’s still sending love from UK! Hehe. Grinning all night thinking of my Hard Rock London whooosshh~

The new friend who touches my heart, and make me go all Omo! Omo! :) that day I thanked you for loving me, and your answer made me speechless.

“Thanx to Allah coz bagi rasa tu kat i..tulah hebatnya kalau syg seseorg krn Allah :) ”

The last sentence was the only actual contain of this entry. The rest were just there to fill up the space =)

To that certain someone, I cried. Ain't I one lucky person? :)

Salam from Aussie:)

"The Safest Wall"

2010-11-17T22:28:00.007+08:00

"Baby just say yes..."

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Interesting enough, right? Thanks to Google :) I bloghopped few days ago, and came across this very interesting fact. These are of "The Safest Wall" in Seoul, South Korea. If not mistaken, it is located near to Namsan Tower, or Seoul Tower, which is one of the attractions in Korea. I remember the first time HE went to Seoul, that he was most captivated with the tower and how fast the elevator went up to the top of the tower. How cute kan kan kan :)

Back to the story, about "The Safest Wall", it is where young couples show their love to each other by locking a pair of padlocks to the fence, and then throw the keys over the edge. This thus shows their commitment for each other, as well as to pray that the love remains forever locked in their heart. Sweet :)

To my dear YOU, I've promised to go and see you by next year, so now I'm praying hard. If I can make it there, let's go to this place, lock the padlocks, throw the keys and get ourselves a bowl of jajjangmyun, Love! You are sooo not gonna leave Korea before I get there! Haha~

This is just another reason to visit Korea. Do wait for me :)

Quick update!

2010-11-06T13:06:00.004+08:00

I’ve been writing inconsistently due to my laziness these days. Plus, people who I don’t wish to read my blog keep on stalking me, questioning this and that, making me feel uncomfortable to write more. Hopefully my idleness for quite sometimes shooed them away!

Updates for now, been successfully sat for final exam. It’s only for two papers, but it’s not easy tho. Lots to read, lots to think. Now that I’ve tried my best, now the only way ahead is tawakal. Whatever you worked for, eventually will come to you one day. I believe in that. Dear God, please let me pass this one. I wanna go to Aussie too :) So far the preparation were headache-ing, with all the forms and payments to make. Believe me, fulfilling forms are never this hard. These forms, are both confusing and irritating. Four days off for Deepavali break, that supposed to be a horray holiday were spent completing those things.Blergghh.

Coming up next is our BTN course, which will be held in Meru BTN Campsite in Klang. Not looking forward, this is so not me. Just hoping that we’ll gonna have fun there. Just hoping. This BTN thing is one kind of frustration too, because I’ve been expecting our IPG to be with IPIK before. But it turns out to be IPSAH. Nadia, I really wanna see you! :(

This is it, for now. Cohort Two chalkies, keep holding on. Be patient with all the borangs. Let’s make this two-and-a-half-year-waiting worth it! (Tho I don’t feel like going anymore)

Anneyong!

my beloved mr otter :)

Memory :)

2010-06-15T16:33:00.008+08:00

One day you told me that we were going to grab some food outside, so I enthusiastically get ready and so on. But as we got in the car, there was a telephone call and you said that we need to drop you off at the Petronas building, just a while so can grab some stuff. Again, I uttered an okay. Arrived, you told me to wait at the foyer, and you disappeared into the elavator. I waited for almost 10 minutes, thank god the sofa was so comfortable there, when a text appeared from my cell. "Ada emergency meeting. Maybe lama. Tunggu kat foyer".

Thing that I hate most in my life. Waiting.

So I sat comfortably on the sofa for the first 30 minutes. The big screen besides me showed Petronas commercial, from what year I wouldn't know. I was trying to not looking at receptionists, both male and female, who were unnecessarily friendly to people that everytime a person came in they will point at me and introduce me to them. About who am I, like they knew. I tried not to care, as I thought the meeting would end in no time. But I was wrong. Three freaking boring hours and I was still there, now watching the repeated commercial on the big screen. It wasn't that I like watching them, coz for God sake, I think Petronas had been in my life even before I was born, but my mp3 had run out of power and I need to switch it off.

It was about 5.oo pm that the meeting actually ended. Meaning, I was sitting there like mad for more that three hours. I was quite upset then, thinking how time flies for nothing. But seeing your face, I realized that I wasn't angry. Not a bit, tho I didn't get the lunch I thought I would be having, tho I had waited for three hours with strangers around me. It was because it's you. My dad.

Of course it was boring to wait at a place where all you can do is sit n stare aimlessly at things. But when it's for you, it will always be okay. It sure was disappointing, to lose a chance to have some time together, but you know what? I was quite proud at that time. Because remember the two unnecessarily friendly people? They kept on introducing me as "Anak Encik Yunos", and those people nodded at me, because they all knew you. Because they respect you. And having a dad who is respectable by others, how couldn't I have any bit of proudness? :)

After all, you still made my day. Tho it was only from the McDonalds Drive-thru booth :)

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A short memory for Fathers Day. Happy Fathers Day in advance, daddy

To all sons and daughters, read this and happy watching!

Untitled

2010-06-15T16:14:00.005+08:00

God knows how much I miss the old days :)

Entri kueh lompang untukmu. (entry panjang berbahasa Melayu)

2010-05-03T20:34:00.007+08:00

Coz I wonder where you are

And wonder what you do

Are you somewhere feeling lonely

Or is someone loving you?

Bagusnya kalau ada someone at least care enough nak tanya aku macam ni T.T Last-last dok replay lagu sama je sepanjang hari, suara Rachel Berry yang hodoh pulak tu dengan boyfie dia yang ala-ala Dakota Stanley junior bak kata Nab. Tape asal jiwaku terlayan :D First of all, ni first time berbelog dalam Bahasa Melayu, tho rojak-rojak gitu. Tak kesala, sebab ade rationalnya tau. Sebab banyak sangat emosi yang nak disampaikan, and kadang-kadang if berbelog in English, maksudnya tak sampai gitu. Sebab mana best nak mencarut dalam BM. Kankan?

Emosi pertama.Losing touch. Penah tak kau rasa macam sebelum ni kau hebat je buat something, tapi tibatiba dah tak hebat or kau dah hilang minat dah. Ha macam tu lah rasanya. Cuma aku, dalam semua benda pon rasa da tak bagus. Contohnya, nak blogging dalam English pon da macam tak reti. Blogging dalam English pon da xtau ape perkataan dia. (oke. hyperbole.) But macam tu la rasanya, down sangat. Rasanya kena marah ngan Miss Letch pun tak rasa camni. Sekarang nak makan pun annoying gila sebab sampai je depan meja Mami tak tau nak order ape. Memang annoying. Pastu salahkan diri sendiri bila terdail Pizza or McD or Hakim (mintak tolong hantar gi QB gagaga). Tapi macam tu la hakikatnya. Bosan sangat hidup ni. Korang tak penah rasa bosan ke?

Aku juga kemalasan. Starting awal sem agi. Ni memang hakikat yang sahih. Dulu kau boleh ah sindir-sindir aku kata aku takyah study sebab aku memang rajin la, memang pandai la. Sekarang da takyah nak sindir-sindir aku camtu. Sebab aku da tak rajin. Taktau kerajinan da dibawa lari kemana. Ke Aussie mungkin. wahaha -.-"

Emosi kedua adalah kemarahan. Lately memang agak baran. Tengok orang landing-landing atas conforter aku pun rasa nak sepak. Sorry, aku paham conforter aku wangi, but kalau tengok kapel dok menggedik kat cafe pun aku rasa nak sepak, kalau orang wat harta aku macam harta sendiri lagi la rasa nak sepak kan. And sangat bengang ngan orang yang suka buat bising. Tho keje aku hari-hari adalah tenung buku-buku and worksheet, tak semestinya aku takperlukan environment yang confortable, Tu sebab aku selalu buat muka kalau kau datang bilik aku (sambil menunding jari ke arah XX).

Dan satu lagi benda marah-marah aku adalah orang yang menyindir perkara-perkara yang berbunyi, "kau takpe kau pandai" or "kau xpayah baca semua da ade dalam kepala". Ini memang taik kau tau tak. Kalau aku pandai pun sebab aku concentrete dalam kelas (konon la) and aku tak buang masa buat bendabenda lame macam sesetengah orang. Contoh bendabenda lame adalah bercakap-cakap sambil makan tengahari kat bilik lama2 sambil tengok movie or drama. Aku pun tengok, tapi tak secara berjemaah sebab bila ramai-ramai, lagha kau tau tak. Hee. Tak paham manusia ni. Pastu bila orang lain dapat result tinggi mula nak menyindir2 as if orang dapat result tinggi tu sebab turun dari langit. Mak kau dari langit!

Dulu selalu menyalurkan rasa marah kat Syahmi. And by selalu I really mean selalu. Mungkin sebab tu dia selalu lari dari aku. Mana taknya nampak cantik (?) kan tapi rupa-rupanya scary gila. Emo and suka marahmarah. Ni Abah aku kata. Kata beliau lagi, aku ada semua sifat2 dia except in controlling anger. Betulkah?

btw da berapa hari da xbertexting dengan Syahmi juga sebab sedang kemarahan. Harap awak faham :D

Things that I'm dying for right now:

Balik rumah bergonjeng dengan mereka dan keluarga mereka. Means my family :)

Twin ke tak? Haa.

Sufficient money for return tickets to Portsmouth, Birmingham and Sydney. Oh, pegi UIA juga mungkin. Ececehh.

Satu lagi return ticket pegi Indonesia. Anyone?

ps:

aku da tengok Glee episod 16.heee :))

korang tau tak kueh lompang tu metaphor untuk apa? kalau betul aku belanje. Tapi Najihah Mohamad takleh join contest ni sebab dia da tawu.

btw kat atas tu lagu Lionel Richie tau. Kot2 ada yang nak donlod.

the road not taken

2010-03-28T17:10:00.006+08:00

my obsession towards photo editing has come back!

I thought friends are for everyone :(

2010-03-14T23:54:00.005+08:00

When Ayoon told me about her friend purposely humiliated her through facebook few weeks ago, I secretly wished I could stand out for her. You know, purposely and humiliating people are two big no-nos for me. But Ayoon thinks its still okay, considering that they are her friends. But recently, a friend of mine just did the same for me, and most importantly, for no reason at all. I was shocked, but it didnt stay for long. I got much better things to worry about other than some cheapo's talking bad about me. And through facebook? So lame.

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I wonder, why such people have to do such thing? Like for the person doing that to me, I am not sure if it was satisfied or not with my respond. Like seriously seriously, I dont have the time for stupid, immatured matter like this. Please grow up, pal. Pretty pretty pleasee. Maybe you did it to gain attention, but it makes you sound even stupider than ever. Huh.

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I think I am considerate enough towards you. I dont want a war, I dont want anything. Not even revenge or equal humiliation. All this while, I ignored people's talking about you being this and that, because I thought I've seen the other side of you. But you proved me wrong. They are absolutely right. I feel sorry for you. And also to myself, for even considering you as a bestfriend. Pal, I dont hate you, I just cant love you anymore.

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Readers, Im sure all of you have friends. So I just wanna ask, in friendship is there any terms of "stealing others' friends" ? Because I was continuously blamed for it :(

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Thought friends are for everyone T.T

:)

2010-03-03T02:33:00.001+08:00

Lastly, everything go on smoothly. No more crazy assignments, no more quarreling with friends.Everything is clear now. Thank God :)

Cant wait to go home!

Growing pain.

2010-02-17T11:10:00.004+08:00

So far away, I wish you were here

Before it's too late, this could all disappear..

Is it wrong to try not to care when you feel like you mean nothing to someone who means everything to you?

Dear best friend, I miss you.

A post with Adam's photo! A must see!

2010-01-28T20:43:00.010+08:00

.budakdemamyangsengal.dantakbergigidepan.

Even a quick update is out of my reach now. Im running out of ideas and quite lazy to blog now. Please gimme some suggestion, otherwise you'll be seeing this blog in it's worst condition soon.

And please mind the title of this entry. It's just Adam. Nobody is interested in him ~~except~~ more than Anis Hanani does.

Take care :)

Once upon a time I was a loser.

2010-01-17T20:59:00.005+08:00

When I was a schoolgirl, young and naive, I'd always wanted to be "in" with this group in my class. Because I was only a librarian and most of them were prefects, for sure I was having this feeling of inferior towards them. But they did accept me well, thanks for my brain that at least I could cope up with these "elites".~~pheww~~. So I was in, the group I mean. But when times flew by I realized that one of them, named XX didn't like me so much.~~And I didn't like her either~~. Perasan sangat. I now she was smart, but I'm in the straight As list too. Whats the different,babe? So while others were being so kind to me, this girl continuesly ostracized me until we finished school. We both succeeded with flying colors and we went to our own path without even having a last glance to each other.

Recently, after quite some years, we were reunited by fate. Thanks to Facebook, I guess. Heh. So I was okay with her, (it wasn't me who added her in my friend list. She did, okay?) despite everything she had done to me. There were other friends too, and we settled up nicely and were so happy to finally gather again after a long time. And guess what? She's the only one who's never try to talk to me, even virtually, or respond to the comments I've send to our group members.What the heck, buddy? Am I invisible? Or I guess your insecurity comes back after seeing me, now?

I'm in a good course. I earned the scholarship. I am going to further my studies overseas. How about you XX?

Now we know who's the biggest loser here, right? Congratz!

You had put quite a show :)

To all daddies :))

2010-01-06T20:41:00.007+08:00

Conner Rhodes: Why does your father act like a retard?
Lucy : He is.

Conner Rhodes: Are you a retard too?
Lucy : No!
Conner Rhodes: How do you know?
Lucy : Because he told me.
Conner Rhodes: But he's a retard!
Lucy : It takes one to know one.
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Have you ever watch I am Sam? I watched it last night and God, it is such a good movie. I regret not watching it earlier, as proposed by a friend. What can I say is the movie touches my heart and it is truly the perfect definition of the word, father. Each and every line in the movie draws emphaty from the viewer, or at least me myself. I am not shame to admit that I sobbed a bit after watching it.It is not really a commercial movie, its what we call message movie. Highly recommended to watch by Yours Truly :)
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I am Sam is a movie about a man named Sam, whose mental capasity is of a seven years old. He solely raises up his child, Lucy since her mother abondoned them after she gave birth to Lucy. Though Sam is retarded, he is supported by his own group of similarly disabled friends and together they bring Lucy up. When she reaches 7, she surpasses Sam's mental disability. What moves me a lot is the time when Sam tries to read for Lucy, and he just can't. And Lucy, on the other hand, pretends that she also doesn't know the word, probably because she doesn't want to hurt her father's feeling. I love this movie because it shows what a father can do to give the best for his child even though it is beyond his limit, and in this case, Sam tries very hard to win over the custody of Lucy when the social workers take her away from him T.T
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Lucy: Daddy, did God made for you to be like this or was it an accident?
Sam : Ok, what do you mean?
Lucy: I mean you're different.
Sam : But what do you mean?
Lucy: You're not like other daddies.
Sam : I'm sorry. I'm sorry. Yeah, I'm sorry.
Lucy: It's ok, daddy. It's ok. Don't be sorry. I'm lucky. Nobody else's daddy ever comes to the park.
Sam : Yeah! Yeah! Yeah, we are lucky. Aren't we lucky? Yeah!

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The best scene in this movie is probably the time when Sam, his friends and Lucy crossing the street with each of them holding a ballon, after they go to buy a pair of shoes for Lucy. It reminds me of walking with my Abah, holding his hands while crossing the street. I even do it until now :)
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All I can say is that we should be proud of our fathers because ours is undeniably the best of all. If the seven years old Lucy can accept that her father is different, why can't us? We should be unconditionally proud with our father. I remember one of my friends who doesn't like to introduce her father to people, saying that he is too old. ~~WTH?~~.Sigh. She should be grateful :/
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Lucy: Why are men bald?
Sam : Sometimes they're bald because their head is shiny and they don't have hair on it. So their head is just more of their face.
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abah, i love you <3.

T o d a y

2010-01-04T14:19:00.010+08:00

How was your first day of school sayang?Hope it turns out good :)

It has been three days of staying in this college and still, I cannot accept the fact that I am now staying in the 2nd floor of Pala. Yes, I'm shifted 2 floors upward. No longer a groundfloor-er :( Why have they been this cruel? Last sem they sent me to Pala from my beloved Rambai, and now, they are giving the ground floor to the seniors. Dangg! Second floor is a bad thing, one thing I'm sure of. Away from tv room, away from the water cooler, away from the washing machine. Sobs T.T

First day of school is quite good. Minus the fact that to go to our new classroom, I need to pass the 2-floors-stairs, climb up all the way to cafe, next is up the gelanggara, the slopy path to BA and head to our classs at 3-5. Huuh. And our previous class at Muhibah (that had been beautified) was given to juniors. Dangdangg! Minus the first lecturer mentioning about the coming assignments. Minus the second lecturer also talking about the next assignment in details. Minus the fact that I'm the new vice president of Tesol 1. Minus my extremely hurt feet walking back to my 2nd-floored room. Today was good, yeahh!

Done with the negative energy. Btw, the result was out today.Ermm I am extremely relieved for it. I even thinking of buying myself a new pair of shoes as a reward (and also to make it easier to climb the stairs). I think a "thank you Allah, thank you mommydaddy and thank you friends" is not enough to say how grateful I am this moment. But not as overjoyed as my secondary school time, because I know this is just it. There's a lot more to face in the future, a lot more to learn for this "degree" title. It's not same with my previous life as a mrsm student where everybody was after a more than 3.50 pointer so they can get the principal's honour.Ohh how I miss the old time! There was one time, 3rd sem if I'm not mistaken, me and all my roomates were on the list! Yes, the 11 of us! We were so damn proud :) But now, everything has changed. I'm not as excited. Not as energetic. Not as positive. Maybe its because of the people :(

I'm quite scared with the upcoming events. The new subjects and assignments sound scary. I don't know if I can cope with this.Sigh.Someone please help me. Someone.
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I'm HOMESICK!

When you're alone coz I'm away

Don't feel sad, don't feel afraid

I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you

Like I always do <3

Eh eh, nothing else I can say. The negative energy keeps on coming back :((

Hello, New Year!

2009-12-31T09:19:00.004+08:00

Hello, people!

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...and may years ahead bring more happiness, joy and success. Amin.

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For about two decades of living, I can say that life is not easy. There are times we rise and fall, but eventually it makes us strong enough to keep on running. I am grateful to live my life and to be me, because it is something anyone else cannot be, not even close. On top of everything, I am thankful to have my beloved family and a bunch of great friends.
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One thing in my 2009 wishlist was granted. I wished to finish my foundation year and pass the final exam. Yes, thank God I've passed, tho the official result is not out yet. Pointer? Keep your fingers crossed, peeps. Wish me luck! Huu~ For 2010, I wish to:
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....and landing VOGUE-ly! yeahh.

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Life is like a box of chocolate. You never know what you're gonna get.

Seize the day :)

Doakan saya berjaya dengan warna2 yang berterbangan. Selamat melangkah ke degree year, Liyana!

Adolescene's innocence?

2009-12-25T21:24:00.005+08:00

She was once a little girl, a very quite and obedient one. She was the kind of daddy's daughter who never objects, the perfect junior me. The one Abah said was the most similar to me in attitude and almost everything. That's Mia my sister.
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Mia will be 13 next year. I never thought she would grow up so fast that she now will be heading to a journey to be an adolescent. And frankly, I don't really trust that she is ready for a teenager's life. But now, I really mean now, she did change a lot. She becomes a rebel and continuosly acting in defiance. Not to mention, she now moves out from our shared room, preferebly to stay alone tho she knows that I do not dare to sleep alone T.T
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Is it hormone? Or is it nature? I didn't remember myself changing that much during my time. I just feel like I don't know her anymore. I try so hard not to fight with her but nowadays we seem to fight more and more often with each other. Is it because I don't understand her enough? Yes, I really really don't understand her. I hope this interval of time will end soon. Please cross your fingers :)
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In the meantime, as a good sister, I'll try to look up for something about children pshycology. I'll try, OK? After all, I may as well be teaching children in the future :)
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Cheers for Mia!
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Footnote #1: I have quite a few posts in que. Others will come later ok?

Footnote #2:Somebody said blogging in English is a way of showing off. I don't agree. What say you?

Give you something to think about, huh? Till then :)

Sayang, you can dance!

2009-11-29T01:15:00.003+08:00

One of the reasons why 2009 captures many beautiful moments in my life is because this year, I start something that I've been longing to since like forever. I dance! Though I dont have any experience in this thingy, let alone expertise, I really want to try it. For even once! So, together with my lovahs, I babystep to the world of dancer and to my surprise, I never wanna stop. Not even now.

I remember volunteered myself for dancing since late 2008, when the seniors demand for dancers from TESL students. But unfortunately, the performance was cancelled at the last minute and to admit, I was quite disappointed. Seems like my hours of practice are thrown into the stinky, black garbage bin. Plus, we were about to do a traditional dance for "Walinong Sari" and for the beginners like us, we put a very commited effort for it. For nothing :(

But our first performance was during the Suara Jati Night, when we were invited to perform. It was on 30th of July if I'm not mistaken. So with less than a week practice, we got on stage performing a country hiphop dance, Hoedown Throwdown from Hannah Montana movie. It wasn't anything serious anyway, but we were extremely happy. As if we got all the fame from that night. Hahaha. We were seriously beginners.

And we named our dance group Legasi Katana, which we ourselves weren't so sure of the real meaning. And this is also because they rejected the "The Red Songket" name I gave :(

the legacy.katana legacy :P

naming a few: lanlan.ridz.yayan (me).pyan.tyra.mierul

...plus afifi,lara,tq, hannah

My second time was during the Teacher's Day celebration, in which we collaborated with the Rajawali Sakti Group performing Kurik Kundi. This day was also when we promoted our Siswa Budaya Club which is looking for new faces. This time was even tougher than our first time. With two days practice, and the stress put by the senior dancers (who were extremely enchanting.lovelovelove them ) make us not at ease. But the performance went on smoothly at last. Thank God :)

Behind. Left to right: Ridz, Tyra, Kak Noni, Liyana, Kaber.

Front. Left to right: Izat, Kak Sya, Kak Syue, Lara, Pyan.

Legasi Katana and Rajawali Sakti--hand in hand

[the senioritas: Liyana, Noni, Tyra, Lara, Syue, Nisya]

[those from Legasi Katana]

.happy moments.

The best time ever--TESL Night 2009. With the theme of Arabic Masquerade, we put on our mask and rocked the stage! We performed an Arabic-modern dance, with range of songs from Amr Diab to Lady Gaga. The duration was the longest since before and I have to say, I never commit to anything harder than this. For this performance, put aside everything. I missed one or two SS discussion for it.

Seriously, it worth it.

the poster :)

princessas

the moments captured :)

I had so much fun that night. It was totally the night I'd like to remember for a lifetime. We could taste the sweetness of the sweatS-y practices we had (Euww).

In a nutshell, I just love dancing. Hee :))

For the cynical lookS and jokeS about me clubbing whatsoever, just go to hell. I don't give a shit lah! I take it as a compliment, anyway :))))

bon anniversaire, bitch!

2009-11-27T00:45:00.002+08:00

to my dearest RIDZ ;-

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY!

for being friend, for good times and for bitch-ing together, here's a present for you (this probably has arrive at your wall :P )

[you and me.once upon a peaceful evening]

Before you get terharu with this present, let me advise you not to. This is just because I'm terribly bored at home and I don't know what to do with your pileS of photo in my device. But, as a return, I demand for the same for my next birthday :PPPP

yours truly,

yayan chantekk :)

Pink Fingers :)

2009-11-26T16:59:00.004+08:00

This morning I made a cake and it turned out to be deadly delicious. Not as good as my fav choc indulgance, but good enough to convince me that I could do something with my kitchen.

Back then when I cooked Maggi murtabak for my friends they also said it was good (but a bit oily.Hee :P) And during our camping, the Nasi Lemak-Backwoodsman-Style that my group cooked was like...four-thumbs-up!

So, I'm not that bad, right? :))

btw pink fingers is the term like green fingers, but to put it in a kitchen context I replace the "green' with my fav color. Hee :PP

I've been thinking to you know, like stop my non-stop eating habit. But being home, foodies are such a bliss. And there are absolutely nothing that support me to do so. You know, things like 3 boxes of ice cream in the ref (and having ice cream in bed when its raining outside), your mom's cooked nasi lemak, and last night, bbq!

It was fun, tho I hadn't make up with Ayang yet. I dont know why, but we always fight with each other. Sometimes I feel like I hate her, like I am gonna take the top I bought for her back. Weird right, but I think I hate her because I can see myself in her. Stubborn-to-death.Huu :(( Whatever it is, m not gonna talk to her until she apologise *sigh*

things I hate about you :(

2009-11-12T17:30:00.004+08:00

for never fails to make me laugh when the sky is grey

for being the one I know I can always rely on

for understanding everything I have to say even before I spit out a single word

for being the one I wanna talk to everytime I shed my tears

for staying by my side when life is not as good as I always thought

for being the person I love more than my bffs

for nearly makes me choose love over friendship

for being the bestest friend

for being the one who holds my hand when Im feeling terrible

for playing dumb everytime I look in your eyes

for being so gay

for the childish look.childish talk.childish manner

for the hug I'd never forget

for taking care

for being the person I wanna see everyday I wake up

for being you, the one only I can see

for backing away when you think its the best for me

for being the one I never shame to sing, to dance with

for never share your tears when its the thing I'd like to do most

for keeping the distance

for ignoring

for tearing me apart

for making me see you in a different light

for being you

for loving.when it seems impossible to

for still being the one I run to

for making me post this crap

I hate you. Just because.

when it doesn't go your way, look up the blue sky and say, "it's ok"

161009

2009-10-17T18:40:00.008+08:00

It's a good thing that we have someone who'll stay, even life is not that good anymore. Thanks.Do stay a little bit longer ♥ -from my facebook :)

Batu Feringgi, last night with Pyan and Diela :P

I know my blog is turning to a photoblog. I dont have much time to write longer :D

the driver and the car

the hungry belly

the hypocrite hungry belly 1

hypocrite hungry belly 2 and super duper hungry singing belly

not-thirsty-anymore bellies :p

happy bellies in front of hard rock shop :))

photos around hard rock cafe

ps: Chris, how's your nasi goreng? Sedap tak? :DDD

choose

2009-09-27T13:34:00.001+08:00

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love and friendship.

which one will you choose over the other?

Haven't heard of John Denver?

2009-09-01T20:48:00.008+08:00

Earlier today during our tutorial session, we talked about love. When Mdm Choong asked our opinion about love, we gave variety of answers. I answered that love is togetherness, as I think the most important thing in loving others is our willingness to stay by their side during the ups and down of their life. But it’s not this matter that kept me from feeling sleepy then.

....................

The four-letters word had actually struck my heart like hell. Few days ago, somebody told me that I’ve been living my life with too little love in my heart. I was shocked to death. I was about to say NO--when I looked at his face and I realized that he was right. Yeah it took someone with that VERY BIG influence on me to give a wakeup call of what I’ve been all this time. Whatever the person said, like always, were all correct. No doubt. I lived with too much negative thought about things. Too much dissatisfaction, too much complaint, too much doubt, too much insecurity, too afraid to love people. Yes, I was paranoid! But maybe my heart was designed that way, there’s not much for me to do, innit??

...................

but this song actually shifted my heart a bit. I could feel the joy of loving then.

Perhaps Love- John Denver

Perhaps love is like a resting place

A shelter from the storm

It exists to give you comfort

It is there to keep you warm

And in those times of trouble

When you are most alone

The memory of love will bring you home

Perhaps love is like a window

Perhaps an open door

It invites you to come closer

It wants to show you more

And even if you lose yourself

And don`t know what to do

The memory of love will see you through

Oh, love to some is like a cloud

To some as strong as steel

For some a way of living

For some a way to feel

And some say love is holding on

And some say letting go

And some say love is everything

And some say they don`t know

Perhaps love is like the ocean

Full of conflict, full of pain

Like a fire when it`s cold outside

Or thunder when it rains

If I should live forever

And all my dreams come true

My memories of love will be of you

..................

At the place I am now, I mean HERE, I don’t think there is any person that I totally trust, totally love, totally share secrets with, totally rely on.I just don’t believe in anybody that easy. Oh, maybe there’s somebody here. Someone who I’ve open my door for. Somebody who I am willing to share more with. Somebody that I thank God for. Sayang kamoo, pal :)

Well I think I ought to change, for real. I should love more, kan?

Put your mask on, dancers!

2009-08-23T22:39:00.008+08:00

Tesl Night was over!

Few details bout the event:

Date: 19th Augut 2009

Vanue: King Hall, I4P

Theme: Arabic Maquerade.

It was awesome! (except the fact that a "lalat" had actually spoil my mood that night) The hall was full of colorful costumes, enchanting masks and also wonderful performances. And not to forget, I was also in one of it! :) Looking back a week before, that was the time when I was most preoccupied with work. Assignments, forum, presentations, practices, all drove me up the wall. But thanx to those who supported me all this time, sayang kamooooooooo semua *hugs*

Picture of the dancers :-

*oasis masquerade*

Even though it was such a tough time, but doing things I love with people that I love always make me feels good =)

*pyan*

*tyra*

*ridz*

Thanx pal.Sayang kamoo :)

and not to forget, Cohort Two, as always,

WE ROCK!!!

*credits to Diela Delilah*

.Dear Miss Follower.

2009-07-21T19:23:00.006+08:00

Hello readers and followers~

It had been long since my last post.I'd been very busy few weeks back. But the good thing is I just got back from Genting Highlands with my sayangness and it was a wonderful trip. I just wish I could stay longer :(

Now I, and so do my cohort mates are busy with the induction week for the juniors. Seriously, from the two days activities, they were so passive. And most importantly, some of them were rude. Dont wanna elaborate much in here. I got another more important thing to write.Whatever it is, hopefully they will get better by times. I understand the feeling of being new. And by the way, one of them catches my eyes. Not one mine, but also Ridz's and Pyan's. Why? Only we know :D

Now, the vital part of all. I'd been keeping this since like long ago as I was too busy to blog. But now I just wanna write looong bout it so that the particular person will know that I already know what she did.

Well I heard somebody talking behind my back. Yes, it is normal. We can't shut others' mouths up and they also can't shut ours right? So believing in basic human right I want to stress here that I dont write this post with anger. I repeat, NO! Indeed, I'm laughing out loud at that person. SHE's so pathetic. Quoting what she had said,

"blog yana?hampeh!"

That's gross mama~ First thing that cross my mind when I heard that is I'm going to face her and ask her what her problem is. Actually she was having some kinda disagreement with my close friend and out of all sudden the blog issue came out, creating the above statement. That is why I was so mad at that time. I was not there, and I wasnt the reason they had the disagreement so why should my blog issue came out? But thinking back of this blog thingy I realized that my actual purpose of blogging is just for self-explanatory. I never think people will read my post, let alone for them to follow my blog so I write basically for myself. If she thinks my blog is that shitty, and she still reads my post, and still be my follower, isnt that makes her aint any different? I think it makes her sounds even more shittier than my blog. Am I right or am I right?

Look I'm giving another example, in case if you're not so clear. You found leftover meal on the table and you're like "euww, that's gross" but then you take it and stuff it in your mouth. Don't you think that the gross one is you?

So my point is, dear Miss Follower, if you think my blog is hampeh, and you as my follower should be way more hampeh right? One thing, feel free to stop following. I don't fancy people like you. Well at least I don't hop to others' blogs and ask them to follow my blog. And one more thing I don't follow blogs just to make the bloggers follow my blog back, like you did. The proof is, I don't even follow your blog right? Because it's boring! I only follow blogs that I like and worthwhile reading with no content like "I'm so bored today. Lets dig into the fridge and see what we can do. Owh I have some prawns here. So today we gonna cook bla bla bla...". I't is so out of date baby. You should be more creative in bringing out a subject. Look, now I'm making fun of your blog back. Not out of anger or revenge, just a bit puzzled with what you said and what you've done.

Im getting tired of writing this. Seriously, expressing feeling thru writing is sort of hard now. Besides it's about people who I dont really like. It's such a waste.

Again, readers and followers, please ignored this entry unless you have all following criterias:

a. a girl

b. a blogger

c. my follower

d. i dont follow your blog

e. on of your blog post is about cooking.

f. your blog is damned boring.

g.you actually asked people to follow your blog.

h. you think i hate you all this time (and its true)

i. you are the one who talks bad behind my back.

j. you believe that I'm writing bout you now.

You owe me an apology. Thank you.

ps: And by the way, its not only my blog that she thinks is hampeh. There's another one. One of our seniors'. One that I think is interesting and worthwhile reading.Well, I don't wanna say who~

And the boom boom clap ends--

2009-07-02T22:57:00.006+08:00

June 3oth, our very first performance as a group in this college. "Legasi Katana" is the name choosen for this group of amateur dancers, even I prefer "The Red Songket" name more. We were given the honour of doing the closing performance for Suara Jati competition that night, even we only have less than a week to decide and practice the dance. At first, we were torn between the "Walinong Sari" dance and the "Hoedown Throwdown " dance. And oh by the way, it is the dance you can see in Hannah Montanna the Movie :) After a short discussion, we decided to go for the Hoedown throwdown thingy, even though it's a modern hip hop-country dance that we'd never tried before. And believe me, the only guide we had was a solely video from Hannah Montanna dance crew. And yet, I think we've done a good job XD

.pyan.yana.tyra.

.star or stardust?.

.yana.pyan.

.legasi katana aka the red songket.

.tyra.yana.pyan.

.rajawali sakti, our seniors.

.with kak noni.

.ridz.pyan.yana.

.ridz.yana.tyra.pyan.

.lara.ridz.yana.pyan.

I've been trying to upload the video but it's no good due to the crappy internet connection here. Well, I can say it's just the agony of being one of the ground floor-ers perhaps. Well, its already uploaded in youtube so browse your server, peeps (if you're interested). Just search for ....err..our group name =D . The recording was not so good though, and I don't even know who was recording it at that time. If God willing, I'll upload it later on, because my recorded-by-mr labu-version is way better. Thanx foster :)

Just a little thanks for my " Legasi Katana" crew for giving full cooperation to each other, and for having faith when we dont have the spirit to keep on moving.

.Hannah, Azlan, Tyra, Ridz, TQ, Pyan, Lara, Mierul, Afifi and of course, ME! :)

Footnote:

Looking forward for next week's skits performance. Now I wonder am I in a teacher trainee instituition or Akademi Fantasia. LOL.

you give me something

2009-06-28T08:25:00.006+08:00

"I never thought that I'd love someone that was someone else's dream", James Morrison in You Give Me Something.

I think I started to see someone in a different light. And it's NO good :(

you want to stay with me in the morning

you only hold me when I sleep

I was meant to tread the water

now I've gotten in too deep

for every piece of me that wants you

another piece backs away

cause you give me something

that makes me scared, alright

this could be nothing

but I'm willing to give it a try

please give me something

cause someday I might call you from my heart

but it might be a second too late

and the words that I could never say

gonna come out anyway

why do we ask for better once we had the best?

adieu Rambai!

2009-06-20T16:11:00.005+08:00

That is it. No more being Rambaian afterwards.*sobs*

Today would be the last day of pampering myself at home. Coz tonite, I'm going back to Penang, where all the miseries will begin. :( I would say that long holidays are somewhat not good, especially for me, as it leads to a torturing homesick afterwards. That is me, always have. And the 'good' (or whatsoever it is called) news is, we're moving to Pala! From Rambai to Pala, what a ...revolution! You see, they are talking bout Tesl students not mingle with other courses', but now who makes the decision to locate only us in a same block? That's something to think about, people. To Anak Pak Man, congratulation for successfully moved to Amra. Tomorrow, I'll experience the same thing, and I'm not pretty sure if I'll mislocate my arms and limbs ( or maybe it's Tyra's arms and limbs) during the process. But at least, I'm not going up the hill, and I, or specifically "we" still be close to our food source. :D

Despite all of this, I'm still looking forward to the first day of school. Not being enthusiastic of handing in LDV homework, no people, neither to hear of any upcoming assignment. The reason will stay a secret, at least until that day. After that, whether you see it or not, something is going to happen! To the particular person, I hope you still remember our promise. Feed them with some drama, okay :)

Tomorrow's not only be the starting of my life in Pala, but also the starting of our third semester of this foundation program. In a few month peeps, we'll be having our finals. We have been doing so good until now, so keep it up, everybody! We were starting it together, so I'm looking forward to finishing it together, too. Good luck, friends. Let's win the battle. And remember, whoever didn't finish reading "To Kill A Mockingbird", you're digging your own grave, dear!

Just a simple reminder to someone who I know will read this entry, stop writing rubbish dear! I know you know that I knew you couldn't make it big, so you made it up, right? Reading about how great you and that person look together makes me feel as sick as the first time I listened to Soko's "My Wet Dreams". It's disgusting!

.copycat.

2009-06-07T21:15:00.000+08:00

It's not the cutie little Hello Kitty that my sister used to collect before, neither my pet, Luxury in the Pet Society. It's a COPYCAT!

I hate it when people are copying, or better explained as plagiarising my ideas or work. I had experienced quite a number of incidents when these copycats make me their victim. I understand that as teenagers sometimes we tend to follow what people do because we want to be like them, or we want what other people have because we may think they have more than us. But plagiarising people's ideas and work, I consider it as inconsiderable. You are suppose to get as much as you deserve. If it's not yours, it won't be yours even though how many times you declare they are yours. You are cheating yourselves, aren't you?

For me being a copycat is as the same as you cheat. Not only people around you, but also to yourself. I'm not saying that I'm so good that I never cheat. Yes, I did. I still remember when I was in Form 4, I hate doing Add Math exercises. So me and my best friend Yak always exchange our homework. She'll finish my Add Math tutorial and I'll write her EST essays. We're practising barter system! But at least I got A's for the subjects in SPM, so it doesn't matter much for me. As for her, I think she's doing good as a medic student.

Well, back to the issue. I think I had enough with these copycat thingy. Once, my lecturer asked us to find notes for the next lesson, so I found some and brought it to the class. Then I left my things to go for break. When I came back, I saw this guy reading some notes, and it seemed familiar. So I told him, "we have same sources!" and he said, "no la, this *** asked just now who want the notes. This is from her" I looked at it very carefully, and guess what? Its mine! And then the "innocent" person came in and without feeling guilty, she said to me," Oh, I borrowed your notes just now and photocopied it for the class". WITHOUT EVEN BOTHER TO ASK ME FIRST AND MOST IMPORTANTLY, SHE DID DIG IN EVERY OF MY STUFF TO LOOK FOR THE NOTES. Sh*t!!!!

I hate it when somebody messed with my privacy. Yes it's true that we need to give and take. But if everytime it's you who's giving without taking, it's too much.

Not long after that, while everybody was busy with the exam preparation, I made this notes of the topics that were constantly repeated by the lecturers. I'd put in so much effort in it. Then this very close friend of mine asked if she could borrow it and I said yes. I'm more than happy to help others. But the very same person who had "stole" my notes before had take it from her, and photocopied it for her friends. OMG what's the problem with this fella? Always want to do the same thing to me. And the worst is that, the notes at last got in my hands, but it was claimed as other's work.

"Oh, it's ****'s notes" She allows if you want to copy it"

....

Another sh*t is going on here.

Well, I guess there's still many of my fellow friends who don't even know that it belongs to me. Well, it belongs to that by_tch right?

Forget about that. I'm not that bad that I hold grudge over the matter. But afterward, I'll be extra careful that these copycats will not dare to touch my thing AGAIN.

But recently, my idea was ONCE AGAIN been plagiarised by somebody. OMG please la, you are not that stupid to copy other's idea right? Well, I don't like to be looked, or sounded similar to others so I'm TRULY expecting you to stop using it. I tell you, it doesn't even sound original anymore. And it's all thanks to you!

If you still using it as if it's yours, you are definitely THICK-SKINNED, babe!

...

I know I'm quite blunt, but I like it.

...

Please back off, copycat.

...

footnote: I'm so kind that I even say "please" :)

good times gonna come?

2009-06-04T19:46:00.000+08:00

slow it down..

make it stop..

or else my heart

is going to pop..

coz its too much

yeah its a lot

to be something I'm not..

WARNING: This entry is basically about self-explanatory ONLY. No hard feeling!

Premis 1:

One fine day, as Miss Letch asked us to find a poem for us to recite the next day, I browsed few websites on poems. That was how I suddenly came across this poem.

A STORY FROM THE HEART

(-.-)

I once heard a story straight from the heart

About a girl and how her world began to fall apart

It all started when she met the boy that made her life complete

Just thinking of him made her heart skip a beat

...

They were the couple everyone wanted to be

There were no imperfections as either one could see

As the weeks passed they fell more in love and were less aware

Of how often life turns out to be unfair

...

Until one day she finally gave in

She realized there was no way she could win

She said I'm sorry but i have to let you go

As he reached for her hand she pulled away whispering no

...

When she turned around a tear slid down her cheek

He just stood there speechless, forgetting how to speak

The next few days were the hardest at home

She truly felt she was all alone

...

Her mom pushed in her face how she had won

Her dad said "i knew he was just another one"

Her sister said "come on you'll be ok"

And her brother just tried to stay away

...

At school it was like her friends weren't even there

None of them seemed to really care

Her life had no more color, just black and white

Even getting out of bed turned into a fight

...

Despite their tries things just weren't like before

Then he decided "i don't wanna try anymore"

At that she tried to cut him out

But the more she ignored him the more her feelings began to shout

...

When she saw him that day she could no longer just walk by

And before she knew it her mouth opened up and out came "hi"

He looked up and said "so now we're talking?"

She just smiled and join his walking

...

Everyday they talked a little more

And everyday she began to like him a little less then before

As the months passed by she became more and more aware

About how its ok life's unfair

...

Because eventually everything becomes your past

But your memories will always last

And with that i hope you see

Not all love is meant to be

...

But hold on and don't give in

Stand tall, hold up your chin

And believe me when i say

The right one will come one day

He'll open your eyes to things you couldn't ever see

I know this because..

this is a story all about me...

Your interpretation?

.................................................

Basically its all about a typical heartbreaking love story right? What had made me so that into this poem is the last part,

About how its ok life's unfair
Because eventually everything becomes your past
But your memories will always last

Could somebody be that positive? I know things happen for a reason but somehow there are things in this life that we can't let go no matter how hard we've tried. Do you agree? But of course I'm not talking about the lame puppy-love story here, I'm talking about a real life situation. For example if you lose a friend for a stupid reason, would you simply accept the fact that the friendship you've built has come to the end?

Premis 2:

This morning (or maybe afternoon) I was texting with my roomate Tyra, bout hols and homework we had. Out of the blue, without a warning, "this name" just pop-out in our conversation. And without a warning too, my heart felt like its about to explode sooner or later, because somehow talking about that person makes me feel uneasy. I remembered the night when Tyra sent me this message, reminding me of "that person's birthday.

OMG what happened to this world? Duh, it doesn't revolve ONLY around "that person"!!

But my heart ached. No matter how tough I might look from outside, this thing is undeniable. I can't help myself from sigh and sign and sigh about how life is unfair. If life is that good, then why should there be problems? Why we need to hurt each other? Why life takes back what I had before?

.I miss being Dolphins.

.I miss being us.

.I miss our smiles.

.I miss our laugh.

I truly miss being with you all!

.....

Things we had before, why everything seemed in black and white now?

GOOD TIMES GONNA COME by AQUALUNG

Need to know

If you're letting go

It's alright,alright, it's alright

Didn't know I was hurting you so

It's alright, alright, it's alright.

...

You came to me from nowhere

With nothing

And no-one

Hold tight, hold tight, hold tight

Goes to show

You never really know

It's alright, it's alright, it's alright

...

This is just one of those

Lonely night

The good times gonna come

...

See me then

Investing so much

In you, in you, in you

Came so close

To the edge I do, I do, I do

...

This is just one of those

Lonely night

The good times gonna come

...

In the end

We let it go away

We let it float away

On the breeze

'Round the bend

The sun is in the sky

It's starting to look like

It's gonna be, yeah, it's gonna be

A bright

Beautiful day

...

Yeah, the good times gonna come, oh no

The good times gonna come!

Now my heart is really going to pop out. I can hear it screaming inside:

footnote: mimpilah yana! and you know you never had a dream comes true~

.back home.

2009-06-02T22:28:00.000+08:00

Being home makes me feel great. At least I'm not surrounded with all the hustle and bustle of class hour. But still, there's a lot to do at home that I'm fully occupied with loads of holiday present, especially from our beloved Miss Letch. =.=

Just before we went back home, we had this dramatization for our English Studies, our "An Evening With Shakespeare". Thank God, we did well. Good job everyone!

Few piccas:-

.2 Tesl 1.

.my MOV groupies.

.cohort 2.

Unfortunately, being home is not as easy as it sounds. Especially when it comes to my LDV homework. OMG I swear they were way too much for a three weeks hols. Finishing the Langan book seems impossible at first, but once I start with it, its kinda easy. So the moral here is to start your work immediately, don't procrastinate everybody!

So far I've done with the first three chapters of the Langan book. Still looking forward to the remaining two chapters. Hehe. I bet not only Miss Letch will be proud of me, John J. Langan himself would be pleased with my determination. Hoho~Actually I'm kinda bored with this hols as no plan come up yet since we had to cancel our holiday trip. :( So I spent my days doing my homework, in case if any plan come up soon. BUT the next two chapters in Langan book are freaking boring and long chapters, so now I better prepare myself for it.

Damn! Haven't started with To Kill A Mockingbird. Haven't started the dramatization reflection. Owohoho~

Another bad news, I'm not going to attend my mjsc batch's reunion as it will be held on June 27th. Too bad that I'm back in Penang at that time. :((

.of cards and presents.

2009-05-16T07:56:00.010+08:00

The very first present for teacher's day, in 2 days earlier. This cute fella gave it to me when I visited his school 2 days ago. Do you know what that zebra really is? Its an eraser! Haha. And amazingly, it can stand. This reminds me of what my friends used to give the teachers for Teacher's Day celebration when I was in primary school. It always be pen, soap, tissue and even biscuits! But nowadays, methink its not happening anymore. My sisters are always demanding for expensive stuffs to be given to their teachers. No more pen. No more soap. -.-

Here I present you, Azhar, giving me the present. Yeay!

Is that zebra enough for a teacher? Absolutely not. Haha. This teacher is being soo materialistic now.*evil laugh* So this poor kid need to make a Teacher's Day card for this cute teacher.LOL. Actually this task was given by their teacher, not me, as I was only surveying the kids and not teaching like before. But it was fun to be with kids, the reason why I ran from my Standard 6 (where I was assigned to) to this Standard 2 class. And this cutie showed some effort to draw Teacher Liyana's picture. Or I can say, he asked his friend to help him to finish the drawing.

And surprisingly, my name was on the card. So automatically, the card was meant for me. Am I right or am I right? :D

*it supposed to be TEACHER liyana lah! pouting*

*me, from the eyes of the kids*

*thank you, students*

But, one of the hooligans in the class actually accidentally stepped on my assesment form. Waa~ left me a huge footstep there. Look, Look!

And nervously, that hooligan tried to erase it. With his hand. And it made it even dirtier. =( So I asked him to stop and vanish from my view. Haha. Just kidding. Im a good teacher~

I was quite happy that day. I know somehow I'd prefer to teach these hooligans rather than the upper standards. I love kids! Always have, always will. And for this time, the best student award will go to this fella. *clap hands*

*i feel them cling and cleave to me*

.happy teacher's day, peeps.

.faces.

2009-05-12T00:26:00.001+08:00

These are the faces I've seen during our second school visit, as one of the activities for the English Language Camp 2009. Believe me, SK Jitra 3 saved this language camp from being described as super duper lame by me. Really love that moment. And kiddos,you roxx!

*my standard one fellas*

*everybody knows how to spell H-A-P-P-Y*

*lets camwhoring together gals*

*the chekgus wanna go back edi.sobrie*

*closing ceremony also so happy ar?haih*

Since this school is new and beautifully built, we can obviously feel the difference between the school we went to for our first school visit in SK Titi Tok Bandar. Yes, it did sound like "bandar" but it was actually a rural area where most of the students were from a low income family. But the most important thing is that, the experiences we had gained there was as priceless as the new one.

few pics from SK Titi Tok Bandar that I'd never uploaded because of emo syndrome I faced thruout the outreach program. :(

*standard one kiddos..again*

*cumil2*

*haziq is ridz's, hafifi is mine*

*mukminin(beside me): "saya sayang kakak"

me: "hehe" *shy2*

These faces make me think, do I really want to be a teacher? Yes, I do! Its quite funny thinking how I dont really want to be a teacher long time ago, till I meet these two great people.

*miss kala devi* my English lecturer

*mr redza* also my English lecturer. Please dont stare. Yes, he is my lecturer.

They are my idols to be a great English teacher. I still remember how Miss Kala was so happy to know that I get the offer from BPG. :D

Haih. Write so long edi. Btw, I am supposed to get ready for my ss presentation tomorow. The big news is..Miss Pat is back! And as usual, the lucky no 1 group to present is...mine! *sigh* Cant imagine hows the coming days will be. and and and actually, we have one more school visit soon. Haih.

And even after I go back home for my semester break, there still be a Standard One student waiting. But this one is simply irresistible.

*ABAN*

miss you too sayang!

moments of emptiness

2009-04-25T14:33:00.007+08:00

My days were empty. No more cheer and laughter. It had been a week since the "thing' happened but we still could not get over it. People say that the closer we are to somebody, the easier we get hurt by them. I agree, so much. Sometimes because of tiny things we misunderstand each other, which I can say the agony of being young. For being immatured, we lose the bond. How things are fragile, right?

I never expect us to be this way. Near but yet so far away. I still remember the time we sat by the seaside during midnight, and together we sang our song out loud while everybody else were sleeping. Also that we promised to always cheerish that moment as it will never happen again. And now I guess it is true, it will never happen again. Never. I really hope that we also promise not to leave each other, not to hate each other, not to hurt each other. I really wish we did.

Dearest friend, I know this thing hurts you the way it did to me. For every word unsaid, I'm sorry. But I believe this friendship was never meant to die, I'll wait. You have promised to end this, and I'm looking forward to it.

Beribu bintang dilangit

Kini menghilang

Meraba aku dalam kelam

Rembulan mengambang

Kini makin suram

Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul

Dalam diam

Ada kerdipan ada sinar

Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan

Terima kasih kuucapkan

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu

Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu

Maafkanlah oh...

Andai lagu ini

Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu

Kau senyumlah oh...

Sekadar memori

Kita di arena ini

Kau ilhamku

I don't ever want you to go.

Please stay.

"the difference between expressing love and having regrets is that the regrets may stay around forever"

mr reenkyra,you're gedix too!

2009-04-15T00:17:00.003+08:00

I tagged him, and he tag me back. Revenge ya? so immature..haha~ So here it goes:

1. do you like the person who tagged you this time?
-if dont hate is considered like, yes i do.

2. why?
-because i dont hate him..?

3. describe his/her personality. (at least five things about him/her)
-galox
-SOMETIMES kind
-cutey2 *haha*
-average height is not much differ from me *gagaga*
-single (based on "im single.n i love it")

4. do you know his/her birthday?
-honestly not.hehe~but it must be in his facebook rite?

5. what is the most wonderful thing that you know/notice about him/her?
-he loves tag! hahaha~

6. will you marry him/her if he/she propose you?
-no.never plan to get married anyway.no offence!

oh btw, I'd like to tag him back. Get back to you, reenkyra!

my story beats lemony snicket's!

2009-04-04T12:28:00.004+08:00

ok. this is the third entry for the day. am i getting out of mind mind? no. this is nature.

About three things I was absolutely positive:

1.yesterday was a disaster

2.im not gonna watch shopaholic anymore.

3.my desires for books are fading.

If you know what i've been thru yesterday, u might agree with me that my story was way better than lemony snicket's. I feel like the Baudelaires were luckier than me. Even though I dont meet any Count Olaf, but still yesterday was tough, let alone the frustration. Wheres my lucky star?

I think I should write a novel of my story of few hours. Hehe~

my super six!

2009-04-04T11:27:00.005+08:00

i was tagged by wai pai, my former classmate in pc. long time ho hear from me? i was quite busy and life was disasterous! :(

here are the simple rules :

1. Go to your photos folder in your computer.
2. Go to the 6th folder of photos.
3. Go to the 6th picture in that folder.
4. Put the picture on your blog and description of it.
5. Invite six friends to join the challenge.
6. Link them your blog and let them know they have been challenged.

in this pic: tyra,natrah,ridz,me,nabila,pyan,wanie,dee,tq,sharp,qya,hana,anis
location:penang youthpark (skateboard area)
date:March 26, Thursday

it was thrilling! we went out during our PE period. This pic was taken while we were having our good time sliding *not skating* at the skateboarding area. Since we dont even have skateboard, we found another way of enjoying our "sliding session" =)

I was happy. They were happy. Now? I am contented. =.=

6 luckiest person i wanna tag:

labu
reenkyra

..other 4 can wait aite?

:D

im at fault-hither and thither

2009-03-30T20:08:00.003+08:00

Give the world the best you have-and it never be enough. Funny rite, do the best you can do to satisfy everybody and yet they mock and mock and talk bad about you. Ironically when they need to seek help or ideas, this very tiny, unimportant person would be the first choice. Life is weird somehow. I must admit, right now I’m facing the hardest time. I was happy before, and my life was a worth living, but now all the glorious, cheerful time has gone with the wind. I know it’s not easy to find friends who can be exactly the same with the one who were with us before. What I can’t accept is that no matter how hard I tried, I just can’t get rid of this feeling. Still, I need my friends. MY FRIENDS!

I’m sick of this depressing life. I don’t have the strength to tell the very same story ever again. The breathlessness continues until I eventually stop talking and bottle up my feeling. I can barely speak a word to anybody. I don’t think the world is round anymore and no matter how long you trace where the rainbow ends, you’ll never found it.

I wonder how could people be so bad and heart be so fragile.

People are often unreasonable illogical and self centered
Forgive them anyway

If you are kind people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives
Be kind anyway

If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies
Succeed anyway

If you are honest and frank they may cheat you
Be forthright anyway

What you spend years building they may destroy
Over night
Build anyway

The good you do today they often will forget tomorrow
Do good anyway

Give the world the best you have and it will never be enough
Give the world the best you got anyway

You see, in the final analysis it is between you and God
It was never between you and them anyway

Ps: For a “friend” who jerks at bloggers who use blog to express their frustration, dissatisfaction etc rather than facing the person themselves, I think you’re wrong. It is way better from people who blow themselves up in blogging (gotcha!)Remind you, write to express, not to impress. Say anything, I just don’t care. It’s my blog anyway.

March 31,2009

back to dat place..again!

2009-03-21T11:33:00.002+08:00

Few hours left before I go back to Penang. This holiday was totally a hectic one, as I spent most of my time doing homework and assignment. Well I think I got new definition of holiday btw! Wholly-used day! :D

I wished I've used my time wiser, since I dont think I spent much time on revising. Thruout this hols, I just finished my homework, prepared for the presentation and little bit of revising. It was scary, sure it did. The exam is just round the corner, and I dont think Im well prepared for it. Seriously Im not! Lazy bone :P

Btw I got a bad news. Its not bad but you know..At least it sounds bad.My dad just lost bout 3000rm. Not stolen or lost, but on me.Ok thats the price to pay for having a child like me..Owh Im such a bad daughter,kan? But its ok Abah, its a good investment. I'll promise to study MORE! hehe~thanks for the present! (yes,its a present!)

What more?? Owh, bout Monday. On Monday, I'll be having my LDV presentation, ALONE, and its part of the assignment! OMG now I wish I am The Big Mouth! But as The Big Hand, Im sure I'll be ok in writing. Gee~ calm down,calm down..its just another presentation..I can do it..yeah! But but but (theres always be but) at night, I'll also be having my Social Study class, which will be for the revision question, and the first group will be...mine! Gosh! Why I always be the lucky number 1? *first come first severed* And the lecturer will be.. Miss Pat. Owh Im thrilled *.* So to Dolphins, I guess there will be no more clubbing. *bubbye mommy zouk* We'll be focusing more on our mock exam. Know your priority!!

As I dont finish my work yet, and I dont even pack my things, I guess its better for me to stop here. Hopefully tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow will be a good day. Wish me luck!

xoxo,

.death like conception.

2009-03-05T00:13:00.003+08:00

death like conception

arrives with the whims of fate

or the gentleness

of the moment.

now death stood in your soul,

the tenant body has surrendered

its blood and life-redness

to its owner,

stock-taker

but death should not come

to the pulsating cells,

not after convalescene,

the rest of renewal.

but it came

and it took you along.

home is where

you return at last,

at the end of the truncated

winding road..

to baby Umar Hamzah, may you rest in peace.

Al-Fatihah.

a vanished friend called---"It"

2009-03-01T11:45:00.003+08:00

A vanished friend, but ironically the person is still here but it seems like the person is near but yet so far away. Not talking, not sharing. Just living our days assuming that we never know each other. Ermm..okay. Not that bad. But doesn’t it hurts to know that someone who used to be closed to us choose to isolate us (in their own way of course) and both pretend that we don’t matter much to each other? Owh its so damned yes!! Its hurt!!

My vanished friend—or can I called it “It” hurts me so much when “It” choose to draw a line between us. We used to be very close but then without we realizing we’re going apart. It’s so obvious that “It” don’t want me to be in its bunch of friends, providing all of them are “good” people and I don’t belong with them. Its all started when someone new came in our friendship. At first “It” was fine; “It” seemed okay with the newbie. But then “It” started to act weird, keep looking for my fault and everything seem wrong in “its” eyes. And now, even when I text “It”, its either no reply or an-hour-delayed-reply. Friendship is weird isn’t it? I always thought that friends don’t leave, but now I learn that they will eventually leave when they feel like leaving us. Unfortunately in my case I was the one who was blamed, ironically for being left behind.

One question, are we good enough to judge others? I don’t mean daily gossiping judging people in the basis of clothes or attitude, but harshly telling people that they are bad and not as good as you. This is what “It” did to me. Providing “It” is sooooooooooooooo damned good that "It” feels that "It” is a better person. I don’t like to talk bad about people but this thing really drives me up the wall. Funny rite accusing people for being bad when you are actually worse than them but hiding all your wrongdoings with all the pious thing you claimed you did. Poor friend, I think you should see yourself first and think back are you good enough to talk somebody else’s wrongdoings. I maybe bad from your eyes, but at least there are things that I didn’t do, but you,(the pious one) do.

For all these time I’ve been defending “It” from others who say bad things about “It” , that “It” is narrow minded, harsh, rude, hypocrite just because I thought we are friends. But now I proudly say that they are right. You’re no good. And for the first time ever, I don’t regret losing a friend. A fake friend, and I called it "It"

ps: Poor grammar, I know. Mixed of emotions are trembling inside me.But since neither Madam Lee nor Mr Teoh would read this, I dont really care. Mind my English :D

.dolphins.in.pangkor.

2009-02-22T22:55:00.004+08:00

Its not that we've found dolphins in pangkor, but its our group, these are the pics of team Dolphins went to pangkor a few days back. The camp was super duper *tuut* dat I gotta find a more peaceful day to blog bout it. Here are some pics and believe me, I got many more to be published. But for now..

.dolphins.and.friends.

.dolphins.on ferry.

.dolphins.camwhoring.

.dolphins.at.jetty.

theres more to come soon dearies..
xoxo!

.hurts.like.hell.

2009-02-10T00:18:00.002+08:00

Life is weird sometimes. You can’t expect the future at all. If you wanna be safe, expect the unexpectable so one day when the time has arrive, it won’t hurt much. I was badly injured in and out, for I always believe in happy ending, where everybody will be equally pleased. I do make mistakes but I don’t regret it. It was who I am, but I’ve changed. I know I’ve wronged someone in the past for being super duper childish, stupid and inconsiderable. But it was in the past...and what I’m asking for now is a second chance..

I know we can’t expect things to be just the way we want but, all this time, I’ve been living with one faith. The one that I just realized only keeping me from moving on. One thing that never allow me to be truthfully happy.

I just wanna scream and lose control.Throw my hands up and let it go.Forget about everything and runaway.I just want to fall and lose myself.Laughing so hard it hurts like hell.Forget about everything and runaway.

.mixed.of.emotion.

2009-02-08T12:20:00.000+08:00

.hectic.
.tiring.
.challenging.

-epitome of life-

This week was tough enough to make me realize that life is a long journey and we actually got less time than we thought. Everyone got their own path to go through, and whether they can make it or not, its all depend on them. Im all stressed up wit all this thingy. Sometimes I felt Im not strong enough to go on, but I keep holding on to faith that good times gonna come sooner or later. But faith is not a guarantee that things gonna be all right in the future~ I think Im geting lazier btw..You know, how it feels to face the same thing every day and make you sick of it (like a devil sick of sin) Im revolting, trembling, yelling, drowning.. and other -ings that u can think of. The most annoying thing that had happened- I got this super sexy voice. Its obviously sexy till I could hardly say a word T.T

But there were good things that had happened along this week. Out to Disterd College for International Woman Day meeting. It was awesome, except the act that we nearly missed our Asar prayer because the person in charge was really excited in making plan for the celebration. I was worried that we gonna have to have a “sleepover” there. But fortunately, we managed to perform our prayer at last, and it was in Gurney! Well, Disterd don’t have surau I think coz all the students were nons- and to our surprise, were the only Malay representatives for that occasion. And on that day, I could tell, IPPs were more shining that any of the KDUs or SEGIs. Wee~

We also had a great time doing some “art” there. Ok, mencapab is really a nature I here, not nurture.Ngeh3~

.me.pyan.

.pyan.me.anis.zalia.

.zalia.pyan.me.anis.

Only now I remember. Got something to do lah! I should come out with the proposal next week.Haiyak~Any idea for telematch anyone?

And also, we had a wonderful tyme during ELC’s Chinese New Year celebration. At least with all those red thingies there I felt as if my spirit were also boost up^^ Cohort 2, believe me, we looked super duper cool in red! Luv these pix~

Im just wondering why am I writing this, while I still got tons of works to do..??

mucas gracias amigos!

2009-02-02T01:16:00.003+08:00

Olidey is over and obviously good times gonna go away (sorry to say, aqualung). Currently feeling dizzy bout the ss thingy. A few lines dat make my previous days unbearable (or is it me exaggerating dat ). And they all come from her:

WHAT IS THE EFFECTS OF CULTURE ON GENDER? IDENTIFY THE SOCIETY. ANALYSE TE EFFECTS OF THE CULTURE ON THAT PARTICULAR SOCIETY ON GENDER.

*blurry blurry*sumone shed sum lite!!

=.=

why must we learn this??

besides questioning every single person dat come across in my mind, I took a very safe step.hehehe~

“yang, tawu x any culture yg bley affects gender?”

….and send it to 01720*****…

wait..

wait..

10 seconds…

then *ringing* but from unknown number..

“yana,…………………………..” (I cut it short)
“…………”

then I heard some noise thru my phone. Like people quarreling or so..But then I realize that those people are discussing bout d question dat I ask.Huu~who are they actually? They r tesl seniors from IPDA, leader: Ayunee Hanim aka my sayang. Im so grateful with their help. They activate the loudspeaker and start discussing, and me, listen and jot down the point. Wee~Lucky me..

Credits to Ayoon and others that I dun even know their name, except Vicky. Lain kali tolong lagi. Hehe..At least I got some ideas and even if I opt to choose another point, I’ll never forget their help. Mucas gracias amigos~*and oso million thx for the one who willingly spend the credit 2 call me just now*

And not to forget, Happy 19th Birthday to my sayam, Yak! May God bless u oweys. I noe my simple sms do makes you happy aite*giggling* Be a good future doctor! Luv ya.. Muah3..LOL~

[wanna sleep]

.reminiscence of my hooha group.

2009-01-27T22:29:00.006+08:00

I always think that life is not fair to separate me from my lovettes. Whenever I got problem or something bad come out, I will sigh and hope that all my lovettes are there to help me. I just cudnt stop comparing my other friends with them. But for sure, they’d never be replaced. They’re always have the special place in my life. Because they’re the ones who make me realized that friendship is not about who comes first or who stays longer, it’s all about who comes and never leave.

::midie my sengalest class rep::

What makes me post this entry is not because I suddenly think bout them or I got problem and I need them to comfort me, but it always good to reminisce old days with our beloved friends. Last night my friend, Midie who’s currently in Jakarta texted me telling how much he missed our friends. Me too Midie, I missed you all damned much! Hopefully your jantung and tulang xm went on smoothly today. Tawakal is a must tau! Hehe.. And after that, Sarah who’s currently in Egypt texted me, also bout the ‘missing’2 thingy. Missed you so Sarah gedixx!!

::afiq my abang long (left)::

And just now, Afiq who’s the nearest to me of all (except the fact that he’s in mainland and Im in the island) texted me. It have been long since we last have a long chat so there were lotsa thing to say. Thanks for missing me friend! I do missed you too lah~wee..We talked about old days and the most important thing, bout his girl. Cum’on la Afiq, theres nothing to worry lah. She’s good ryte if not how cud you fall for her at the first place?? Im sure you can get over your internal conflict soon. Be confident of yourself okey? Be happy^^Shameful lah my Abang Long be this weak. Huhu~ And yeah..bout Mr Redza getting enganged without telling us. Cruel lah sir *growl*

::sarah+me+tan::

When I look back these entire things, I realized that life’s not easy for all of us. It’s not only me who faced these kinds of situations but also them. The difference is that the way we handle things. But one thing Im sure of is that Im blessed to have them. We might be separated by distance, but we know that we live in each others and no matter what happens, we’ll stay this way.

.LOVE YOU ALL TO DEATH.

my dewdrops bliss

2009-01-24T21:51:00.003+08:00

[ me spotted in the dolphins saver squad]

Im home..finally! Dunnoe how to describe the feeling of being home. Happy, but at the same time, feel tied to a bundle of work. Gee~ How can I enjoy the bliss of being home with all this craps clinging to me? This idyllic atmosphere I enjoy would be as short as dewdrops in the morning. Aftawards, Im all dried up.*sigh* And I got a lot in my list-to-do. With my lappy and handphone being currently a lil bit mereng, my spirit is totally been demotivated. Also, I got a movie marathon to finish. It’s a must!! I always practice edutainment, coz education n entertainment must be on-da-go for me^^

Arrived home around 4am, I continued ma sleep soundly until bout 11. Waa, what a comfy! Havent been this carefree since I first arrived in IPP for dis sem. Today, I did nothing *in p&p la* I just start ma movie marathon, watch Korean series and o9. What a day^^ But tomorrow Im gonna start my work. Working like theres no tomorrow I will (or at least I hope so).

One thing, I oledy got d green light from my dad, to buy “dat thing”. Aww~Im bloody happy today. If I eva know this persuading session would be this easy, I might have done it long ago. Whatever it is, this is one of the privilege to be daddy’s daughter. Sorry Achik, dun envy me ya.*LOL* But btw Abah, actually I got one more thing in my wish list…or is it two?? What a good money spender daughter I am >.<

Bout the dolphins saver squad, Ive been trying to upload this pic since before but due to some problem,only now it can be published. Feel free to join our team. Together we save the dolphins. :D

*till I blog maself again*

the old Lie:

2009-01-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

Assignments are mounting…again! Like pouring rain, we’re again showered by loads of work to do. I just hope this unbearable misery to walk away. Or at least, fading by time. Cant life spare me some space to breathe? Im tired of this distressing, bad time consumer thingy dat keeps on clinging our life. And now, aha..! More ole2 for this coming holiday. *should I be happy??* I know its part of student life but I never expect of something like this. Homework comes to you like a group of monster in a marathon to catch you. Yes, it is dat bad!! But yet, I wonder why I dun collapse yet. In this case, I think milo helps a lot..=)

DANCING QUEEN

Okeyh, this is another thing dat make things worse. The dance performance for Relay 4 Life. Its not dat I dun wanna take part, but I wish I cud have more than 24/7 in my life. I love dancing, but on top of everything, study comes first. Im not a flexible person who can adjust maself due to situation. Im the type of ..I can say have a “pathological fear” of last minute work. Its so bad it can kill me..T.T

Whatever it is, I’ll just wait patiently for these two days to pass by. Then, I’ll reach home! Whats better than to be with our family? Mumi, I want nasi dagang..huhu~

Today was a tiring one. But one thing dat made it all worthwhile was dat my group had done with our ES presentation and we’re all satisfied with dat. Good job everyone. Million thanks to you all^^ The old Lie: Dulce Et Decorum Est.

Tomorrow sure be a more tiring one. I heard they wanna play rugby tomorrow =.= For these two weeks I’ve not been myself during PE period. I went for handball and football before. Then yesterday, our cohort went for dat Tujuh Tin game. Lebam lah kaki! Im thinking of way to skip tomorrow’s game. Dun wanna play rugby..T.T

Cudnt upload any photos..Bad blogspot~

.perfect week for the not-so-perfect me.

2009-01-10T17:36:00.004+08:00

I have to admit my first week of skooling is not dat easy though. I wished that there’s notim much for this week but what I got was the vice versa instead. Loads of assignments, presentations, and obviously everything bout the ss thing. Opps, I forgot. One more thing, redoing our es assignment!

Btw whats so great wit Sarawak till Mr Mohan decide to leave us, his very ‘beluv’ students and ‘present’ us wit Chegu Patricia itu?? Out of all sudden we all have been very busy flipping every notes we have, screening every website for extra reading and been so Im-the-active-type in the class. Its not like I dun really like her, but its just a culture shock as we dun even got the chance to feel sleepy in the class, leave alone to sleep!

“define masculinity”

“what is trait”

“what physical”

“you’re not answering my question”

“what makes you say that”

These are the sentences that she uses to zupzup our each and every answer, on our first day! Okeyh, Mr Mohan never do that. At least he would listen to our opinion first, no matter how stupid it sounds.

But looking from a different view, that also brings a benefit to us. Give 300% attention in class, good preparation for neu topic, no more I’m-sleepy-so-cud-you-gimme-five-minutes-to-sleep faces during that period. We’re forced to love the ss thingy more. And the rumours that the exhibition will be held soon nearly kill us. Im just hoping that rumours will still be rumours. Please dun come into reality!

Bout the es thing, owh dat hurts! All of us need to redo our assignments in 2 weeks. And for my class, we’re totally doing a different assignment as the format is not the same anymore. Not even in the same family with the prev one. Luckily Madam Rovena is there to help us, if not…

So Im hoping dat dis severe atmosphere will change soon. Still got lotsa work to do in my list. Shopping, Twilight, Korean series. But I wonder when all of this will end, or maybe be less awful and let me do my routine as normal as possible.

The good:

.i watched Chihuahua last nyte.*cute lol*
.i read bout ss MORE than before.

The not -so-good:
.my ss thingy.
.es assignment.
.no time for twilight that Im craving for.
.no time for blogging.
.no qb.
.no bedtime story.
worst eva: my lappy charger had exploded*is it exploded?sort of laa* n for now im depending on tyra’s. =.=

so, what a perfect first week eva aite…?

.three little birds pitch by my doorstep.

2009-01-04T20:24:00.003+08:00

Im bloody sad la.
Dis evening my Abah went back home, leaving me alone here.
Lots of stacked things to tidy up, but I manage to do it. Yeay!
But then, so sad T.T
Dunnoe wuts wrong wit me but Im sort of..homesick!
Yes, n I regret wasting my olidey saying its damned boring la, notim to do la..
Haish~ now I wish I could stay longer.
I miss my lil Aban, wondering how hes doin today, his very first day of schooling.
I miss my fam.
Im being such a crying baby, kan?
I noe my Abah wudnt like it.
Whenever I feel like crying, I’ll call my Abah and let him talk.
Feel relieved, I’ll try to handle it.
But still not in the mood, I hope theres notim much for tomorrow so I cud adapt myself to the environment that Ive left long ago.

...this song keeps playing in my mind. Three little birds-Bob Marley~

Rise up this mornin,

Smiled with the risin sun,

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singin sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true,

Sayin, this is my message to you-ou-ou:

Singin: dont worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!

Every little thing gonna be all right. dont worry!

Singin: dont worry about a thing - I wont worry!

cause every little thing gonna be all right.

.great.so-so.bad.

2008-12-31T23:55:00.001+08:00

+my last english crap of 2008+

::will these memories fade when I leave this town::

Well I always wonder what would it feels to be apart from a very great bunch of people after one year struggling together, experiencing good and bad time together. We used to sit and talk and talk and talk after class, being late to lecture hall, hangout eating ice cream in front of coop, banana fritters, ‘killer’ popeye uncle’s pau, the beach, the birthday parties, English classes, drama competition. Honestly I think I’ll never find people like them, they’re impossible to find. But life must go on. Now we’re now are on our own path, scattered and there’s no way for us to be like the old time. We have our own dream, and together we’ll go one step closer to it. Even our destinations are different, we have a same vision and together, we always be for each other in chasing our dream. Its not even a year since we left our college, since the last time we see each other but I miss my h4p6 buddies so much. Especially my two best friend, Huda and Saleh, miss them badly. For my buddies, Miss Kala and oso Mr Redza, luv u all^^

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

::syahmi::

Needless to say, but I’m hoping that you’re always happy. You’ll always be my unintended. It never fails to remind me of you. I was sad, I was upset, but now I realized that maybe we’ll get something better after this. And I think you should realize that too. Its good for ur health. Hehehe^^

No I can't forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that's just the way

The story goes

You always smile but in your eyes

Your sorrow shows

Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow

When I think of all my sorrow

When I had you there

But then I let you go

And now it's only fair

That I should let you know

What you should know

::start of something new::

is it a dream comes true? Maybe and maybe not. Currently studying in Penang, what can I say is that its not too good and not too bad. Lotsa friends wit same interest but different attitudes. Some are annoying, I must say, but nobody is perfect. So I try to adapt myself and I think I can fit in. Study is ok but I wish I could do better nex sem. For me this sem is just a start for our long journey. At least, Im doing what I oweys wanted to do. My hope for the future, pass this foundation programme and fly up, up and away~

::this is bout….::

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

Its a love story baby just say yes

Yes, its all bout love story. Mine..?? Nope. It’s a complicated thing okeyh. Lets skip this part~

::who-i-hope-to-remain-buddies-wit-me::

Act there are people that I wish I cud meet up with durim this olidey but due to not-so-considerable-thing I cudnt. Im not angry or wut, but a lil upset maybe. But somehow I hope this distance will never affect our frenship *providing Im not good in long-distance relationship. But believe me dat I’ll oweys by ur side.

When you're alone 'cos I'm away

Don't be sad

Don't be afraid

I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you

Like I always do

::closing::

I met Sham..again! On Sunday 28th Dec, 1045 pm, outside my Abah’s office. I was in the car. Act it was his bro-in –law who wanna meet my Abah. Then out of all sudden he was oso there. Then he came to the car and greets my Ummi. And I saw he jenguk2 in the car and I gave him the sweetest-shy2-cat-smile-eva. Haha~ And I heard he talked n talked to my Ummi. But sorry Sham, our fams will never, eva, eva be lyk before again, and neither do us. So you can go now. Haha *evil-high-pitched-vampire-laugh*

But just now I just went shoppim *once again!! shoppim bajuuu~Hehe^^

That’s all what I can say bout my 2008 year. So is it great,so-so or bad? Owh, please don’t say bad. I think it’s a so-so. But I must say I like last year waaaaaaaaaaay more than this year. Miss all my dearies. Looking forward to meet some of them nex year. For those who has promise a visit to me, please come A.S.A.P! I’ll be waiting for you. And not to forget, thanx to Afiq who have came to Penang to visit me during my early days in Penang. Not gonna forget our 12-hours-exhausting-money spending-jalan2 around the pulau. Do come again nex year^^

Tonite I’ll be celebrating new year with Ally. Which Ally..?? Ally Iskandar lah. Hehe~ Luv him!

Whatever it is, just hoping nex year will be a very promising one

And btw, see ya nex year~

from me with a bunkface

2008-12-28T17:39:00.005+08:00

No.no.. Im responding to this tag wit a smiley face okehs. Things I hate bout skool..?? I do love skool. Now n oweys. But there are things dat used to torment me during my skooldays. Here it goes^^

koko-kola

Okey, I really hate the kokurikulum things. I oweys think that that things were not beneficial since like…forever! I also dunno but that’s the truth. I feel like I was wasting my time and I never present at the koko meeting sincerely. Everytime was by force. Force of nature. Huhu ~

P.E period and Sport Day

First and foremost, jz want you to know that I cant be tolerate in sports. From the games during P.E to the tournament, I hate it! I also hate the ‘ujian kecergasan’ we used to have in skool. Hello, Im cergas enuf okey! I don’t think I need that crap. And Im afraid with ball. Yes,ball! It’s a nitemare when the ball is coming to you in high speed, or maybe more than the speed of light and bumps into you with a large momentum! And I cant run fast. That’s a big NO! So during my skooldays I used to feel low among my friends for I don’t participate much in sport. So say no to sport!!

History period

Honestly, history period never fails to make me feels sleepy. No matter what the teachers do, what they teach, what time, what style, I still feel sleepy. Yes, Im a sleepyhead, I admit but I never allow myself to sleep in class. In fact, history is the only subject that succeeded in making me break my principles. And now that Im in IPP, something has taken the ‘title’ from history. You know what?? Social studies!! Im sorry Mr CM, I’ve tried not to make a sleepy, blur, I-don’t-understand-anything face in ur class, but I cant hold the temptation, especially in our morning class. I promise to be a driver nex sem, no more passenger2 thing. Hehe^^

Mr. I’m-The-Senior-So-I-Can-Do-Anything

Okey Im changing the subject from things to a person here. Im seriously hate this guy. I dunnoe him at all. I met him during my first or second week in IPP. And he had been so DAMNED rude. He dunnoe me, and I dunnoe him. But since he thought that seniors don’t have to respect the juniors, then he was like showing off and being stuck up. Because I was still in my orientation week so I thought it would be so rude for me to talk back to him even tho he was acting crossing the line. But if he does the same thing again to me, Im not hesitate to teach him the lesson. Respect people, man..!! But when I think back of that incident I realized that somehow God oso created such trash and I shudnt act at the same level with him. I thank God that I didn’t do anything that day. So the lesson here is there are NO such thing that Im older, wiser and better..!!

p/s: lets call it a day..thx to mr reenkyra..haha^^

when macquarie meets portsmouth

2008-12-24T10:00:00.004+08:00

Today is totally one of the best days during dis holiday. To meet yunee is what I really want since long time ago. I haven’t meet her for bout a year and today, after all conflicts and quarrelling, I made it to kb mall to see her.*but it is after she’s waiting for more than an hour and oledy finished her mangkuk of ais kacang. Its about 1.00 pm that time. Thx a lot to my cousin Hafiz for willingly send (and then fetch ) me there. If not Im sure I’ll be a hulk, throwing tantrums at home and so do yunee. I bet she’ll explode herself due to boredom and wrath. Keeping her waiting for dat long oledy drive her up d wall, kan yunee? hahaha~

Back to the title. When Mcquarie meets Portsmouth. But supposely the title is ‘when Macquarie meets Portsmouth and Queensland. Unfortunately Queensland cudnt make it there bcoz of something dat I oso not sure. And excited Ayunee is turning to a less excited yunee edi. Haish~So there goes the title.

Aryanna=Mcquarie

Yunee=Portsmouth

Nadya=Queensland

*based on our tesl twinning prog lol

We walk and walk and walk and as usual, SHOPPING! I spend 197rm today alone *providing I din go shopping for quite a long time, and the ATM machine generously gimme some money.wink2* I buy a shirt n a pair of shoes. Tired of walking here n there, we go to RasaMas and have our lunch (at 4.00 pm). Wanna noe wut I have? Aha, oledy forgot the name, but it taste like tomyam tuna. yummie2~ siyesly its super duper delicious and affordable tho*drooling* (in the meanwhile, we shared lotsa gossips, esp bout…! gee~ )

After that, walk2 some more. go to the bakery to buy donuts *abah yunee punyer* and earring for yunee’s besfren’s befday *d one who gives her laddoo. haha*clap hands! * Then go to buy cartridge for my printer (btw I got lotsa notes to print out). Then I send her out to get a taxi. But as the taxi pakcik offers a HIGH charge, she decides to take a ride wit the bus. So there goes the hugging2 scenes in front of kb mall main entrance. Hakhak^^

I walk inside, alone, heading to the other entrance (coz my cousin will be waiting for me there) and suddenly I see something. KFC. Then I remember of my bro. Haiyak! So I go and buy something. (It’s the variety bucket things okehs. There goes ma money T.T)Then I go outside and I see my kind-but-cruel cousin is oledy there. Yippie, dun have to wait for him! Then he nags bout me spending too much money. Do I? huhu. Like I care. Its my money btw. And he drives me home. Safely home, I called my Abah (at his office, worrying of me going out too long). Eat the KFC and discussing some wut-so-eva issues wit my cousin and then he left. Surprisingly my internet connection is getting better and Im able to post this entry. Yeay~

muah2 credits to:

::hafiz my cousin::

::ayunee::

::faten::

……for make it my day…….

p/s: it was YESTERDAY~

mirror mirror on d wall,ples help me!

2008-12-17T23:41:00.002+08:00

It has been long since I last post something here. I just got nothing appealing enough to share wit you people. But there’s actually a problem, one that not suppose to be a problem but I’m the one who make it a problem. Okehs, straight to the point. I just diagnosed wit a fatal disease. Love bipolar. Sux rite? But as far as I know, there ain’t any remedy for this disease. It don’t even exist in any medic diction! Is it true that time heals everything? It may works to you but unfortunately not for me. Funny rite how some things we just can’t deny even tho we’ve tried so much?

Let me tell you the situation. There’s been this guy, X. He’s friend. A special friend of mine. But then, a new kind of explosive, subtle, beautiful disastrous feeling just pop out. And honestly, I hate it. You know how I don’t believe in friendàlover relationship since the ruptured of my relationship wit you-know-who. But now the situation is different. Coz you know wut, the X person is already taken. wtf?! So I guess in this case its so unlucky I’m in love wit my best friend.

This is never the way I want our relationship to be. But can you hold the temptation when your heart start to like somebody more than you should? How can I stop this feeling? Seriously I want us to stay this way. I don’t want it to change even a bit. And on top of that, there’s no way I’d steal somebody’s. As I believe so much that what goes around, comes around I wish not to do bad things to people. Or at least, do less bad things to people.(but the evil side of me said “who cares?” =D)

One more thing is that X also treated me very well. It’s not my fault alone. Who tell him to be so kind to me? Don’t he know that I easily melts with that kind of people? And now, who’s gonna responsible for all my damaged heart? Of course he don’t know my feelings towards him, if not I’m dead meat! Actually I’m trying so hard to keep a distance between me and him but since he has been so damn cool then we keep on going as usual. Hate this situation where the person is right here near us but we still cudn’t reach them. But he’s also making the thing worse by making things that people see as “putting an effort” *yunee’s opinion!. I cudn’t understand it any better so it keeps on hunting my days wit all those big question marks in my head.

As I said earlier, I think I’m the one who make this thing a problem and I also know that I shudn’t let it kills our relationship. I do love him, more than a friend but dats all. It’s obviously not love, I’ll take it as attraction. That’s how we react to opposite sex I think. So for now I declared myself clear from any distraction of heart problem. I’ll be his very best friend. The one he would never leave behind.

You're a part time lover and a full time friend

The monkey on your back is the latest trend

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

You are always trying to keep it real

I'm in love with how you feel

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.

p/s: I love you

for those guys whos reading this post, it wasnt u okehs! dun worry..haha^^

my.love.hunter.is.missing

2008-12-11T22:03:00.002+08:00

Actually I was searching for a text, I mean an article that I wrote before to publish in our LDV newsletter. Title: LOVE HUNTER. But unfortunately, couldn’t find it. There’s no way I’ve deleted it, coz I really like what I’ve wrote. Its kinda motivating but yet not boring to read. N worse comes to worst when I couldn’t rememba the name saved for that file. So I hv 2 search it MANUALLY. .

*searching*

*searching*

*searching*

….but still………

so I guess, no LOVE HUNTER, no publish~! I juz wanna share my thought bout people who hunts for love madly and desperately, until they are blinded by love *not by the chillman okeh :D Bout the article,yeah Im satisfied,at least its my 1st trial of all but unfortunately, NOTHING IS FLAWLESS. Theres a typing mistake,and its sooo obvious. BTW, how come ‘good’ can be ‘god’. *and I only realized it after it was published.Haiyak~~!! shame!shame!

Lil bit bout the article, its not that I think we shouldn’t hunt for love, no IM NOT! But its proper not to be too… *u noe what-- Be moderate la, God’s willing you’ll find what you’re looking for. Some people wait a lifetime to found their true love. Some are not. See, the future, life and span are not for us to see. Maybe its already here but you’re not seing. Who knows. I once read that “love is not love until u say it” but I also believe that “love makes mutes of those who speak most fluently”. Makes sense rite..?

I.AM.TALKING.BOUT.LOVE

Haha~! Cant believe Im the one writing this. Yes its me. The other side of me. *btw how many side I got?? Oso dunnoe. But still, I don’t believe in happy ending. You know why? Coz I believe in no ending. Beautiful things are never meant to end^^

Something to share:

TRUE LOVE CANNOT BE FOUND WHERE IT TRULY DOES NOT EXIST,
NOR CAN IT BE HIDDEN WHERE IT TRULY DOES…

ps: I love you

sincerely,
-me-

i am not yours.obviously.

2008-12-10T10:01:00.001+08:00

U BETTER SEE THESE~~

2008-12-09T21:41:00.009+08:00

it had been long snce i dont write sumthing,ryte?at least i think it is.emm bout the unseen,its not that something paranormal,not that okeh.its a bundle of pics that id love to share,something that i think you'd never see before coz i got many pics in my collection to be shown.to start,lets take a look at this cute lil girl below^^

WHO'S THAT GIRL?

Name:Nur Liyana Aqilah Mohamad Yunos.

Age:=-1 yrs old.(1990)

*yeah i know she's cute.and now that she's 19 edi,her cuteness remains^^haha.envy me..!

ANOTHER SIDE OF MY BROS

NI BOTH MY BROS.Aban n Adam.this is their normal look.Look adorable,ryte?

But then,they may change A LIL BIT to be like this...

haha.wuteva it is,i still love them.okeh?deal~~

NOW,MY BUDDIES

In pics:aryanna'me'-midie-saleh-huda

Location:Malacca Zoo

Year:2008

Whaddup:Finishing last bio experiment!

In pics:midie-aryanna'me'-huda-saleh-aimie-sarah-khad-wani-dil
Location:Outside kmm's koop,in front of kak mala's cc

Whaddup:makan eskrem afta lab bio

In pics:huda-afiq

Time:Ramadhan 2007,Miss kala's besday

Whaddup:Lazing around wit our party left-over*huda was happy*

*extra info:photographer=aryanna 'me'

NEXT,MY BELOVED ROOMATE!

In pics:Sarah-Aryanna 'me'

Location:Dataran Pahlawan,beside Mahkota Parade

Whaddup:We play panjat2 the train n actually there people watching us,but we dont care.eh,sarah cares,but i dont :D
Mood:Happy~~

In pic:Sarah-Aryanna 'me'-Ling Hui

Location:Padang Golf,way out of kmm.

Mood:Blends wit estacsy of wuteva things xD

eh jap,

Photographer:Aiza kesayanganku^^sori dear,xde gambar kamoo.nt akanku post a tribute 4 u okeh.

CLASS OF h4p6::

In pic:Sarah-Aryanna'me'-Azedah-Melya-Tan

Location:Bio lab of kmm,2nd floor(last class)

Whaddup:Pretending to discuss when someone point the lense to us.Tan is exploring my enfon.N oso taking his own pics using mine^^

MY ONE N ONLY BIG BRO.

In pic:Hafiz abangku.

Whaddup:Die ketiduran during chem's lecture.Me too,but im in d 2nd row.Could sleep,too near wit d lecturer^^

Location:DK2 of kmm(last row,middle side)

*maaf abgku,no offence k*

THE OTHER SIDE OF HIM

In pic:Hafiz-Aryanna'me'

Location:Bayview Hotel

Whaddup:Annual Dinner DM.I got the lucky draw.Yippie~~

LIFE AT IPP TERCHENTA

In pic:Tyra-Aryanna'me'

Location:Dewan Agung of IPP

Whaddup:My rumet n i wanna take d pic wit d prop 4 tesl nyte.But i look somewhere else n theres someone else in the pic.GRRRRRRRR~~

PEARLACE IN MEMORY

In pic:Aryanna'me'-Wawa-Tyra-Natrah

Location:Gua Kelam

Whaddup:Sight seeing wit wawa's sister!Thnx to her.Sporting gile kak aimi.Muah3^^

In pic:Aryanna'me' wit Manis the kuda

Location:Ladang Kuda tok sedare Wawa.Aku menumpang kaseh di sini.huhu.On d way nk g Padang Besar

Whaddup:Im so scared.but still,smile 4 d camera^^

In pic:Tyra-Aryanna-Natrah

Location:Not sure act,but otw to go to the bendang to see the paddy(this is tyra's main reason of goin there)

Whaddup:We borrow the pancing from a kid just 4 d photoshoot.Haha.We're obsessed wit pics.

Photographed by Wawa.

MORE n MORE

balik2 je from Perlis,kelaparan terase.So,call la dat pizza guy~~

I JUST LOVE HANGOUTS.

Location:Auditorium P.Ramlee

Whaddup:Watching theatre together2.Hv fun. Yeay^^

In pic:Me-Ridz-Tyra

Location:In d hall

Whaddup:The show is on!!

in front of p.ramlee's house

like this pic!

Overall,

Location:Perangin Mall

Whaddup:Gaming!But my pics are only pics.Only for dat purpose.Xreti gaming~!

TYRA N RIDZ.si gile lensa!

Whaddup:Mereka melarikan enfonku.Mereka menyalahgunakannya.Mereka memenuhkan memory fonku.Bt sume gmbr udah di delete olehku.Usaha mereka sia2^^

ps:wut a post.u hv no idea how long i take 2 finish this.njoy reading!

"a picture worth a thousand words"

he's turning seven^^

2008-12-05T22:30:00.005+08:00

+gemok sket+

+kurus sket+

Cant believe he's turning 7 next year.So small,so much pampered.How come I dont realized my baby is so much grown up.Amirul Amin aka Aban,luv u so~~

isnt he looks adorable...?

ey,btw.I've found an intersting quote to share.From Albert Einstein^^

"gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love"

interesting,ryte..??Got lots more to share but maybe next time.Till then^^

LOVE IS EASY.HATE TAKES COURAGE

2008-12-04T22:06:00.002+08:00

Man is a knot into which relationships are tied. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Flight to Arras, 1942, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

Having someone wonder where you are when you don't come home at night is a very old human need. ~Margaret Mead

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow. ~Swedish Proverb

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Oh, the comfort - the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person - having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. ~Dinah Craik, A Life for a Life, 1859

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting? ~Stephen Levine

Don't smother each other. No one can grow in the shade. ~Leo Buscaglia

Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.~Phyllis McGinley, "Ballade of Lost Objects," 1954

Assumptions are the termites of relationships. ~Henry Winkler

I like her because she smiles at me and means it. ~Anonymous

Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings. ~Miles Franklin

You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. ~Frederick Buechner

Present your family and friends with their eulogies now - they won't be able to hear how much you love them and appreciate them from inside the coffin. ~Anonymous

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you." ~A.A. Milne

I felt it shelter to speak to you. ~Emily Dickinson

Are we not like two volumes of one book? ~Marceline Desbordes-Valmore

Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough. ~Dinah Shore

Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is most important. ~Carl Reiner

LETS PLAY NUMBER

2008-12-03T23:57:00.001+08:00

1.jason^^
2.syahmi nasri
3.hanim ayune
4.nadya aya
5.adilah almi
6.ridzvogue
7.saleh sley
8.tyra atiyah
9.mr redza
10.nor afiq

1. how did u meet no. 4?
–we're schoolmate in smip n mjsc pc^^
2. Do you have a crush on anyone up there?
–yup,i am with no 1 n was wit no 2^^
3. What would you do if you hadn’t met number 1?
–i'd never know hes that charming^^
4.What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
–aaaaa!ridz,hes my ex...!!!
5. How did you meet number 8?
–shes my rum8 snce my very 1st day in ipp^^

6. Is 2 one of your best friends?
–used to..err,act not so..close friend maybe^^

7. Whose number 9’s best friend(s)?
–owh my lecturer sometimes are secretive bout his life^^
8. Have you ever dated number 1?
–yes3~~its too good to be true^^
9. Do you miss number 4?
–yea~never seen her snce 2006 mayb...??
10.what do u think of number 6?
–the voguesssss eva^^
11.what do you think of number 7?
–very good friend.mish ya^^
12. who does number 3 like?
–this guy..emm,cudnt rememba his name^^
13. Have you ever been inside number 8’s house?
–nope.looking 4ward to^^
14. Do you trust these people?
–some yes^^

ITS.ME.AGAIN

2008-12-03T23:34:00.000+08:00

Nothing to write,just a reflection on what had happened today.Actually its nothing special,as I mention below.No extraordinary thing I did.But the most incredible thing to happen is that I read a novel.Yeah,its incredible(at least for me) because I'v read a Malay novel.To be honest,I dunnoe the title(because its all torn).Honestly.But the story was good,at least it kept me reading until the end.Its not that Im not reading Malay novel,I am,err..not2^^I was~I dont even remember the last time I read a Malay novel.I used to,early secondary school maybe.But what I found bout Malay novel is that they have same(or maybe similar)storyline,n sometimes its just xmasuk akal.*typical*But this one is good I tell you^^haish I wish I know the title.Im gonna check it later on k^^Next is about the internet.The connection is not so good.Thats why I didnt spend much time on this lappy s usual.And for sure it gives my 2 little bro much time for gaming~To be true,theres more n more games are downloaded to my lappy this olidey for the 2 of them.But for sure its just kiddy2 games(providing my bros are only 6 and 4 yrs old).Semak je.Gonna delete them aftawards..Haha!!And the best thing is updating my blog.As you see,new look ryte?This is the real me,simple but yet desirable^^

wed.3rd dec.1210 pm

2008-12-03T12:05:00.000+08:00

i realized something just now.yes,that im doing d same thing every single day since d holiday began.my days only revolve around:

1.eating

2.ym

3.blogging

4.studying es(dunnoe y im so much into lit)

5.fs

6.tv

7.sleep

8.berangan2

n no more^^d same routine everyday.poor me~haish

I KISSED A GIRL^^

2008-12-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

This was never the way I planned

Not my intention

I got so brave, drink in hand

Lost my discretion

It's not what, I'm used to

Just wanna try you on

I'm curious for you

Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chapstick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

No, I don't even know your name

It doesn't matter,

You're my experimental game

Just human nature,

It's not what, Good girls do

Not how they should behave

My head gets so confused

Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked itI liked it,

Us girls we are so magical

Soft skin, red lips, so kissable

Hard to resist so touchable

Too good to deny it

Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

I dunnoe why i keep listening to dis song all day.

Is it becoz...??

Owh~my bad!!

Tidak..tidak^^

Saya maseh normal~

N im taken^^

d.o.o.m.e.d

2008-12-02T20:23:00.000+08:00

I juz cudnt agree more.its so damn true.Dont make someone a priority if they only make you an option.But what if someone treated you as if you're their priority,but the thing is you'll always be their option?Well,under certain circumstances,it might happen when you'll be like..an alternative maybe..but the thing is you yourself cudnt stop yourself from being an ALTERNATIVE because you love the way that person treated you.But here im not portraying myself as an alternative,not me ok..but somehow something happened in our life with or without us realizing it might kill us.And worse come to worst when we cudnt do anyhing other than to let it happen..

Or maybe we do try,but its not enough.You know like doing something that you dont wanna do,even though its for your own good.Love is to have,not to hold.Something that i'll remember forever.It means a lot to me.Yea,for not holding someone i really wanna hold..but having him close is the best thing that cud eva happen to me.And i'll keep that best thing(so far) until i found something better than my best thing.But is there any possibility for a better best thing to happen?I also wonder^^

Haish~this is also a killer statement.Like i say before,love is to have not to hold.So never give up hope.Theres always love all around us,or it maybe right beside us but we arent seeing..We're just looking~~

i am poemoh im proud of it

2008-11-22T20:28:00.000+08:00

'I am' poem

I am awesome, nice person
I wonder what people think about me
I hear these people talking
I see these people pointing at me
I want them to see the real me
I am awesome, nice person

I pretend I didn’t hurt
I feel as if everybody loves me
I touch their heart with my charm
I worry for this maybe just a dream
I cry when they talk bad about me
I am awesome, nice person

I understand people will continue judging
I say that I know myself better than them
I dream of a day when they will accept me
I try to bring the best in me
I hope they will see who am I
I am awesome, nice person

*i wrote this poem in my ldv class wit miss letch.we were only given a short time to finish our poem so i guess this poem could be better if we're given enough time.but somehow i just love my poem as it really resembles myself*nama pon i am poem*haha~n what i like most bout this poem is that i'v been given opportunity to recite it in class n miss letch said "good poem".owh im honoured to hear that..luv miss letch*muah2*

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Day 15 of 366 (Pic spazzzin)

Light.

"The Safest Wall"

Quick update!

Memory :)

Untitled

Entri kueh lompang untukmu. (entry panjang berbahasa Melayu)

the road not taken

I thought friends are for everyone :(

:)

Growing pain.

A post with Adam's photo! A must see!

Once upon a time I was a loser.

To all daddies :))

T o d a y

Hello, New Year!

Adolescene's innocence?

Sayang, you can dance!

bon anniversaire, bitch!

Pink Fingers :)

things I hate about you :(

161009

choose

Haven't heard of John Denver?

Put your mask on, dancers!

.Dear Miss Follower.

And the boom boom clap ends--

you give me something

adieu Rambai!

.copycat.

good times gonna come?

.back home.

.of cards and presents.

.faces.

moments of emptiness

mr reenkyra,you're gedix too!

my story beats lemony snicket's!

my super six!

im at fault-hither and thither

back to dat place..again!

.death like conception.

a vanished friend called---"It"

.dolphins.in.pangkor.

.hurts.like.hell.

.mixed.of.emotion.

mucas gracias amigos!

.reminiscence of my hooha group.

my dewdrops bliss

the old Lie:

.perfect week for the not-so-perfect me.

.three little birds pitch by my doorstep.

.great.so-so.bad.

from me with a bunkface

when macquarie meets portsmouth

mirror mirror on d wall,ples help me!

my.love.hunter.is.missing

i am not yours.obviously.

U BETTER SEE THESE~~

he's turning seven^^

LOVE IS EASY.HATE TAKES COURAGE

LETS PLAY NUMBER

ITS.ME.AGAIN

wed.3rd dec.1210 pm

I KISSED A GIRL^^

d.o.o.m.e.d

i am poem*oh im proud of it*

i am poemoh im proud of it