.reminiscence of my hooha group.

I always think that life is not fair to separate me from my lovettes. Whenever I got problem or something bad come out, I will sigh and hope that all my lovettes are there to help me. I just cudnt stop comparing my other friends with them. But for sure, they’d never be replaced. They’re always have the special place in my life. Because they’re the ones who make me realized that friendship is not about who comes first or who stays longer, it’s all about who comes and never leave.

::midie my sengalest class rep::

What makes me post this entry is not because I suddenly think bout them or I got problem and I need them to comfort me, but it always good to reminisce old days with our beloved friends. Last night my friend, Midie who’s currently in Jakarta texted me telling how much he missed our friends. Me too Midie, I missed you all damned much! Hopefully your jantung and tulang xm went on smoothly today. Tawakal is a must tau! Hehe.. And after that, Sarah who’s currently in Egypt texted me, also bout the ‘missing’2 thingy. Missed you so Sarah gedixx!!

::afiq my abang long (left)::

And just now, Afiq who’s the nearest to me of all (except the fact that he’s in mainland and Im in the island) texted me. It have been long since we last have a long chat so there were lotsa thing to say. Thanks for missing me friend! I do missed you too lah~wee..We talked about old days and the most important thing, bout his girl. Cum’on la Afiq, theres nothing to worry lah. She’s good ryte if not how cud you fall for her at the first place?? Im sure you can get over your internal conflict soon. Be confident of yourself okey? Be happy^^Shameful lah my Abang Long be this weak. Huhu~ And yeah..bout Mr Redza getting enganged without telling us. Cruel lah sir *growl*

::sarah+me+tan::

When I look back these entire things, I realized that life’s not easy for all of us. It’s not only me who faced these kinds of situations but also them. The difference is that the way we handle things. But one thing Im sure of is that Im blessed to have them. We might be separated by distance, but we know that we live in each others and no matter what happens, we’ll stay this way.

.LOVE YOU ALL TO DEATH.

my dewdrops bliss

[ me spotted in the dolphins saver squad]

Im home..finally! Dunnoe how to describe the feeling of being home. Happy, but at the same time, feel tied to a bundle of work. Gee~ How can I enjoy the bliss of being home with all this craps clinging to me? This idyllic atmosphere I enjoy would be as short as dewdrops in the morning. Aftawards, Im all dried up.*sigh* And I got a lot in my list-to-do. With my lappy and handphone being currently a lil bit mereng, my spirit is totally been demotivated. Also, I got a movie marathon to finish. It’s a must!! I always practice edutainment, coz education n entertainment must be on-da-go for me^^


Arrived home around 4am, I continued ma sleep soundly until bout 11. Waa, what a comfy! Havent been this carefree since I first arrived in IPP for dis sem. Today, I did nothing *in p&p la* I just start ma movie marathon, watch Korean series and o9. What a day^^ But tomorrow Im gonna start my work. Working like theres no tomorrow I will (or at least I hope so).


One thing, I oledy got d green light from my dad, to buy “dat thing”. Aww~Im bloody happy today. If I eva know this persuading session would be this easy, I might have done it long ago. Whatever it is, this is one of the privilege to be daddy’s daughter. Sorry Achik, dun envy me ya.*LOL* But btw Abah, actually I got one more thing in my wish list…or is it two?? What a good money spender daughter I am >.<

Bout the dolphins saver squad, Ive been trying to upload this pic since before but due to some problem,only now it can be published. Feel free to join our team. Together we save the dolphins. :D

*till I blog maself again*

the old Lie:

• Assignments are mounting…again! Like pouring rain, we’re again showered by loads of work to do. I just hope this unbearable misery to walk away. Or at least, fading by time. Cant life spare me some space to breathe? Im tired of this distressing, bad time consumer thingy dat keeps on clinging our life. And now, aha..! More ole2 for this coming holiday. *should I be happy??* I know its part of student life but I never expect of something like this. Homework comes to you like a group of monster in a marathon to catch you. Yes, it is dat bad!! But yet, I wonder why I dun collapse yet. In this case, I think milo helps a lot..=)

DANCING QUEEN

• Okeyh, this is another thing dat make things worse. The dance performance for Relay 4 Life. Its not dat I dun wanna take part, but I wish I cud have more than 24/7 in my life. I love dancing, but on top of everything, study comes first. Im not a flexible person who can adjust maself due to situation. Im the type of ..I can say have a “pathological fear” of last minute work. Its so bad it can kill me..T.T

• Whatever it is, I’ll just wait patiently for these two days to pass by. Then, I’ll reach home! Whats better than to be with our family? Mumi, I want nasi dagang..huhu~

• Today was a tiring one. But one thing dat made it all worthwhile was dat my group had done with our ES presentation and we’re all satisfied with dat. Good job everyone. Million thanks to you all^^ The old Lie: Dulce Et Decorum Est.

• Tomorrow sure be a more tiring one. I heard they wanna play rugby tomorrow =.= For these two weeks I’ve not been myself during PE period. I went for handball and football before. Then yesterday, our cohort went for dat Tujuh Tin game. Lebam lah kaki! Im thinking of way to skip tomorrow’s game. Dun wanna play rugby..T.T

Cudnt upload any photos..Bad blogspot~

.perfect week for the not-so-perfect me.

I have to admit my first week of skooling is not dat easy though. I wished that there’s notim much for this week but what I got was the vice versa instead. Loads of assignments, presentations, and obviously everything bout the ss thing. Opps, I forgot. One more thing, redoing our es assignment!


Btw whats so great wit Sarawak till Mr Mohan decide to leave us, his very ‘beluv’ students and ‘present’ us wit Chegu Patricia itu?? Out of all sudden we all have been very busy flipping every notes we have, screening every website for extra reading and been so Im-the-active-type in the class. Its not like I dun really like her, but its just a culture shock as we dun even got the chance to feel sleepy in the class, leave alone to sleep!

“define masculinity”

“what is trait”

“what physical”

“you’re not answering my question”

“what makes you say that”

These are the sentences that she uses to zupzup our each and every answer, on our first day! Okeyh, Mr Mohan never do that. At least he would listen to our opinion first, no matter how stupid it sounds.


But looking from a different view, that also brings a benefit to us. Give 300% attention in class, good preparation for neu topic, no more I’m-sleepy-so-cud-you-gimme-five-minutes-to-sleep faces during that period. We’re forced to love the ss thingy more. And the rumours that the exhibition will be held soon nearly kill us. Im just hoping that rumours will still be rumours. Please dun come into reality!


Bout the es thing, owh dat hurts! All of us need to redo our assignments in 2 weeks. And for my class, we’re totally doing a different assignment as the format is not the same anymore. Not even in the same family with the prev one. Luckily Madam Rovena is there to help us, if not…


So Im hoping dat dis severe atmosphere will change soon. Still got lotsa work to do in my list. Shopping, Twilight, Korean series. But I wonder when all of this will end, or maybe be less awful and let me do my routine as normal as possible.

The good:

.i watched Chihuahua last nyte.*cute lol*
.i read bout ss MORE than before.

The not -so-good:
.my ss thingy.
.es assignment.
.no time for twilight that Im craving for.
.no time for blogging.
.no qb.
.no bedtime story.
worst eva: my lappy charger had exploded*is it exploded?sort of laa* n for now im depending on tyra’s. =.=

so, what a perfect first week eva aite…?

.three little birds pitch by my doorstep.

• Im bloody sad la.
  
• Dis evening my Abah went back home, leaving me alone here.
  
• Lots of stacked things to tidy up, but I manage to do it. Yeay!
  
• But then, so sad T.T
  
• Dunnoe wuts wrong wit me but Im sort of..homesick!
  
• Yes, n I regret wasting my olidey saying its damned boring la, notim to do la..
  
• Haish~ now I wish I could stay longer.
  
• I miss my lil Aban, wondering how hes doin today, his very first day of schooling.
  
• I miss my fam.
  
• Im being such a crying baby, kan?
  
• I noe my Abah wudnt like it.
  
• Whenever I feel like crying, I’ll call my Abah and let him talk.
  
• Feel relieved, I’ll try to handle it.
  
• But still not in the mood, I hope theres notim much for tomorrow so I cud adapt myself to the environment that Ive left long ago.

...this song keeps playing in my mind. Three little birds-Bob Marley~

Rise up this mornin,

Smiled with the risin sun,

Three little birds

Pitch by my doorstep

Singin sweet songs

Of melodies pure and true,

Sayin, this is my message to you-ou-ou:

Singin: dont worry about a thing, worry about a thing, oh!

Every little thing gonna be all right. dont worry!

Singin: dont worry about a thing - I wont worry!

cause every little thing gonna be all right.

.great.so-so.bad.

+my last english crap of 2008+

::will these memories fade when I leave this town::

Well I always wonder what would it feels to be apart from a very great bunch of people after one year struggling together, experiencing good and bad time together. We used to sit and talk and talk and talk after class, being late to lecture hall, hangout eating ice cream in front of coop, banana fritters, ‘killer’ popeye uncle’s pau, the beach, the birthday parties, English classes, drama competition. Honestly I think I’ll never find people like them, they’re impossible to find. But life must go on. Now we’re now are on our own path, scattered and there’s no way for us to be like the old time. We have our own dream, and together we’ll go one step closer to it. Even our destinations are different, we have a same vision and together, we always be for each other in chasing our dream. Its not even a year since we left our college, since the last time we see each other but I miss my h4p6 buddies so much. Especially my two best friend, Huda and Saleh, miss them badly. For my buddies, Miss Kala and oso Mr Redza, luv u all^^

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

::syahmi::

Needless to say, but I’m hoping that you’re always happy. You’ll always be my unintended. It never fails to remind me of you. I was sad, I was upset, but now I realized that maybe we’ll get something better after this. And I think you should realize that too. Its good for ur health. Hehehe^^

No I can't forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that's just the way

The story goes

You always smile but in your eyes

Your sorrow shows

Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow

When I think of all my sorrow

When I had you there

But then I let you go

And now it's only fair

That I should let you know

What you should know

::start of something new::

is it a dream comes true? Maybe and maybe not. Currently studying in Penang, what can I say is that its not too good and not too bad. Lotsa friends wit same interest but different attitudes. Some are annoying, I must say, but nobody is perfect. So I try to adapt myself and I think I can fit in. Study is ok but I wish I could do better nex sem. For me this sem is just a start for our long journey. At least, Im doing what I oweys wanted to do. My hope for the future, pass this foundation programme and fly up, up and away~

::this is bout….::

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

Its a love story baby just say yes

Yes, its all bout love story. Mine..?? Nope. It’s a complicated thing okeyh. Lets skip this part~

::who-i-hope-to-remain-buddies-wit-me::

Act there are people that I wish I cud meet up with durim this olidey but due to not-so-considerable-thing I cudnt. Im not angry or wut, but a lil upset maybe. But somehow I hope this distance will never affect our frenship *providing Im not good in long-distance relationship. But believe me dat I’ll oweys by ur side.

When you're alone 'cos I'm away

Don't be sad

Don't be afraid

I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you

Like I always do

::closing::

I met Sham..again! On Sunday 28th Dec, 1045 pm, outside my Abah’s office. I was in the car. Act it was his bro-in –law who wanna meet my Abah. Then out of all sudden he was oso there. Then he came to the car and greets my Ummi. And I saw he jenguk2 in the car and I gave him the sweetest-shy2-cat-smile-eva. Haha~ And I heard he talked n talked to my Ummi. But sorry Sham, our fams will never, eva, eva be lyk before again, and neither do us. So you can go now. Haha *evil-high-pitched-vampire-laugh*

But just now I just went shoppim *once again!! shoppim bajuuu~Hehe^^

That’s all what I can say bout my 2008 year. So is it great,so-so or bad? Owh, please don’t say bad. I think it’s a so-so. But I must say I like last year waaaaaaaaaaay more than this year. Miss all my dearies. Looking forward to meet some of them nex year. For those who has promise a visit to me, please come A.S.A.P! I’ll be waiting for you. And not to forget, thanx to Afiq who have came to Penang to visit me during my early days in Penang. Not gonna forget our 12-hours-exhausting-money spending-jalan2 around the pulau. Do come again nex year^^

Tonite I’ll be celebrating new year with Ally. Which Ally..?? Ally Iskandar lah. Hehe~ Luv him!

Whatever it is, just hoping nex year will be a very promising one

And btw, see ya nex year~

from me with a bunkface

No.no.. Im responding to this tag wit a smiley face okehs. Things I hate bout skool..?? I do love skool. Now n oweys. But there are things dat used to torment me during my skooldays. Here it goes^^

koko-kola

Okey, I really hate the kokurikulum things. I oweys think that that things were not beneficial since like…forever! I also dunno but that’s the truth. I feel like I was wasting my time and I never present at the koko meeting sincerely. Everytime was by force. Force of nature. Huhu ~

P.E period and Sport Day

First and foremost, jz want you to know that I cant be tolerate in sports. From the games during P.E to the tournament, I hate it! I also hate the ‘ujian kecergasan’ we used to have in skool. Hello, Im cergas enuf okey! I don’t think I need that crap. And Im afraid with ball. Yes,ball! It’s a nitemare when the ball is coming to you in high speed, or maybe more than the speed of light and bumps into you with a large momentum! And I cant run fast. That’s a big NO! So during my skooldays I used to feel low among my friends for I don’t participate much in sport. So say no to sport!!

History period

Honestly, history period never fails to make me feels sleepy. No matter what the teachers do, what they teach, what time, what style, I still feel sleepy. Yes, Im a sleepyhead, I admit but I never allow myself to sleep in class. In fact, history is the only subject that succeeded in making me break my principles. And now that Im in IPP, something has taken the ‘title’ from history. You know what?? Social studies!! Im sorry Mr CM, I’ve tried not to make a sleepy, blur, I-don’t-understand-anything face in ur class, but I cant hold the temptation, especially in our morning class. I promise to be a driver nex sem, no more passenger2 thing. Hehe^^

Mr. I’m-The-Senior-So-I-Can-Do-Anything

Okey Im changing the subject from things to a person here. Im seriously hate this guy. I dunnoe him at all. I met him during my first or second week in IPP. And he had been so DAMNED rude. He dunnoe me, and I dunnoe him. But since he thought that seniors don’t have to respect the juniors, then he was like showing off and being stuck up. Because I was still in my orientation week so I thought it would be so rude for me to talk back to him even tho he was acting crossing the line. But if he does the same thing again to me, Im not hesitate to teach him the lesson. Respect people, man..!! But when I think back of that incident I realized that somehow God oso created such trash and I shudnt act at the same level with him. I thank God that I didn’t do anything that day. So the lesson here is there are NO such thing that Im older, wiser and better..!!

p/s: lets call it a day..thx to mr reenkyra..haha^^

when macquarie meets portsmouth

Today is totally one of the best days during dis holiday. To meet yunee is what I really want since long time ago. I haven’t meet her for bout a year and today, after all conflicts and quarrelling, I made it to kb mall to see her.*but it is after she’s waiting for more than an hour and oledy finished her mangkuk of ais kacang. Its about 1.00 pm that time. Thx a lot to my cousin Hafiz for willingly send (and then fetch ) me there. If not Im sure I’ll be a hulk, throwing tantrums at home and so do yunee. I bet she’ll explode herself due to boredom and wrath. Keeping her waiting for dat long oledy drive her up d wall, kan yunee? hahaha~

Back to the title. When Mcquarie meets Portsmouth. But supposely the title is ‘when Macquarie meets Portsmouth and Queensland. Unfortunately Queensland cudnt make it there bcoz of something dat I oso not sure. And excited Ayunee is turning to a less excited yunee edi. Haish~So there goes the title.

Aryanna=Mcquarie

Yunee=Portsmouth

Nadya=Queensland

*based on our tesl twinning prog lol

We walk and walk and walk and as usual, SHOPPING! I spend 197rm today alone *providing I din go shopping for quite a long time, and the ATM machine generously gimme some money.wink2* I buy a shirt n a pair of shoes. Tired of walking here n there, we go to RasaMas and have our lunch (at 4.00 pm). Wanna noe wut I have? Aha, oledy forgot the name, but it taste like tomyam tuna. yummie2~ siyesly its super duper delicious and affordable tho*drooling* (in the meanwhile, we shared lotsa gossips, esp bout…! gee~ )

After that, walk2 some more. go to the bakery to buy donuts *abah yunee punyer* and earring for yunee’s besfren’s befday *d one who gives her laddoo. haha*clap hands! * Then go to buy cartridge for my printer (btw I got lotsa notes to print out). Then I send her out to get a taxi. But as the taxi pakcik offers a HIGH charge, she decides to take a ride wit the bus. So there goes the hugging2 scenes in front of kb mall main entrance. Hakhak^^

I walk inside, alone, heading to the other entrance (coz my cousin will be waiting for me there) and suddenly I see something. KFC. Then I remember of my bro. Haiyak! So I go and buy something. (It’s the variety bucket things okehs. There goes ma money T.T)Then I go outside and I see my kind-but-cruel cousin is oledy there. Yippie, dun have to wait for him! Then he nags bout me spending too much money. Do I? huhu. Like I care. Its my money btw. And he drives me home. Safely home, I called my Abah (at his office, worrying of me going out too long). Eat the KFC and discussing some wut-so-eva issues wit my cousin and then he left. Surprisingly my internet connection is getting better and Im able to post this entry. Yeay~

muah2 credits to:

::hafiz my cousin::

::ayunee::

::faten::

……for make it my day…….

p/s: it was YESTERDAY~

mirror mirror on d wall,ples help me!

It has been long since I last post something here. I just got nothing appealing enough to share wit you people. But there’s actually a problem, one that not suppose to be a problem but I’m the one who make it a problem. Okehs, straight to the point. I just diagnosed wit a fatal disease. Love bipolar. Sux rite? But as far as I know, there ain’t any remedy for this disease. It don’t even exist in any medic diction! Is it true that time heals everything? It may works to you but unfortunately not for me. Funny rite how some things we just can’t deny even tho we’ve tried so much?

Let me tell you the situation. There’s been this guy, X. He’s friend. A special friend of mine. But then, a new kind of explosive, subtle, beautiful disastrous feeling just pop out. And honestly, I hate it. You know how I don’t believe in friendàlover relationship since the ruptured of my relationship wit you-know-who. But now the situation is different. Coz you know wut, the X person is already taken. wtf?! So I guess in this case its so unlucky I’m in love wit my best friend.

This is never the way I want our relationship to be. But can you hold the temptation when your heart start to like somebody more than you should? How can I stop this feeling? Seriously I want us to stay this way. I don’t want it to change even a bit. And on top of that, there’s no way I’d steal somebody’s. As I believe so much that what goes around, comes around I wish not to do bad things to people. Or at least, do less bad things to people.(but the evil side of me said “who cares?” =D)

One more thing is that X also treated me very well. It’s not my fault alone. Who tell him to be so kind to me? Don’t he know that I easily melts with that kind of people? And now, who’s gonna responsible for all my damaged heart? Of course he don’t know my feelings towards him, if not I’m dead meat! Actually I’m trying so hard to keep a distance between me and him but since he has been so damn cool then we keep on going as usual. Hate this situation where the person is right here near us but we still cudn’t reach them. But he’s also making the thing worse by making things that people see as “putting an effort” *yunee’s opinion!. I cudn’t understand it any better so it keeps on hunting my days wit all those big question marks in my head.

As I said earlier, I think I’m the one who make this thing a problem and I also know that I shudn’t let it kills our relationship. I do love him, more than a friend but dats all. It’s obviously not love, I’ll take it as attraction. That’s how we react to opposite sex I think. So for now I declared myself clear from any distraction of heart problem. I’ll be his very best friend. The one he would never leave behind.

You're a part time lover and a full time friend

The monkey on your back is the latest trend

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

You are always trying to keep it real

I'm in love with how you feel

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.

p/s: I love you

for those guys whos reading this post, it wasnt u okehs! dun worry..haha^^

my.love.hunter.is.missing

Actually I was searching for a text, I mean an article that I wrote before to publish in our LDV newsletter. Title: LOVE HUNTER. But unfortunately, couldn’t find it. There’s no way I’ve deleted it, coz I really like what I’ve wrote. Its kinda motivating but yet not boring to read. N worse comes to worst when I couldn’t rememba the name saved for that file. So I hv 2 search it MANUALLY. .

*searching*

*searching*

*searching*

….but still………

so I guess, no LOVE HUNTER, no publish~! I juz wanna share my thought bout people who hunts for love madly and desperately, until they are blinded by love *not by the chillman okeh :D Bout the article,yeah Im satisfied,at least its my 1st trial of all but unfortunately, NOTHING IS FLAWLESS. Theres a typing mistake,and its sooo obvious. BTW, how come ‘good’ can be ‘god’. *and I only realized it after it was published.Haiyak~~!! shame!shame!

Lil bit bout the article, its not that I think we shouldn’t hunt for love, no IM NOT! But its proper not to be too… *u noe what-- Be moderate la, God’s willing you’ll find what you’re looking for. Some people wait a lifetime to found their true love. Some are not. See, the future, life and span are not for us to see. Maybe its already here but you’re not seing. Who knows. I once read that “love is not love until u say it” but I also believe that “love makes mutes of those who speak most fluently”. Makes sense rite..?

I.AM.TALKING.BOUT.LOVE

Haha~! Cant believe Im the one writing this. Yes its me. The other side of me. *btw how many side I got?? Oso dunnoe. But still, I don’t believe in happy ending. You know why? Coz I believe in no ending. Beautiful things are never meant to end^^

Something to share:

TRUE LOVE CANNOT BE FOUND WHERE IT TRULY DOES NOT EXIST,
NOR CAN IT BE HIDDEN WHERE IT TRULY DOES…

ps: I love you

sincerely,
-me-