.great.so-so.bad.

+my last english crap of 2008+

::will these memories fade when I leave this town::

Well I always wonder what would it feels to be apart from a very great bunch of people after one year struggling together, experiencing good and bad time together. We used to sit and talk and talk and talk after class, being late to lecture hall, hangout eating ice cream in front of coop, banana fritters, ‘killer’ popeye uncle’s pau, the beach, the birthday parties, English classes, drama competition. Honestly I think I’ll never find people like them, they’re impossible to find. But life must go on. Now we’re now are on our own path, scattered and there’s no way for us to be like the old time. We have our own dream, and together we’ll go one step closer to it. Even our destinations are different, we have a same vision and together, we always be for each other in chasing our dream. Its not even a year since we left our college, since the last time we see each other but I miss my h4p6 buddies so much. Especially my two best friend, Huda and Saleh, miss them badly. For my buddies, Miss Kala and oso Mr Redza, luv u all^^

Will we think about tomorrow like we think about now?

Can we survive it out there?Can we make it somehow?

I guess I thought that this would never end

And suddenly it's like we're women and men

Will the past be a shadow that will follow us 'round?

Will these memories fade when I leave this town

I keep, keep thinking that it's not goodbye

Keep on thinking it's a time to fly

::syahmi::

Needless to say, but I’m hoping that you’re always happy. You’ll always be my unintended. It never fails to remind me of you. I was sad, I was upset, but now I realized that maybe we’ll get something better after this. And I think you should realize that too. Its good for ur health. Hehehe^^

No I can't forget this evening

Or your face as you were leaving

But I guess that's just the way

The story goes

You always smile but in your eyes

Your sorrow shows

Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow

When I think of all my sorrow

When I had you there

But then I let you go

And now it's only fair

That I should let you know

What you should know

::start of something new::

is it a dream comes true? Maybe and maybe not. Currently studying in Penang, what can I say is that its not too good and not too bad. Lotsa friends wit same interest but different attitudes. Some are annoying, I must say, but nobody is perfect. So I try to adapt myself and I think I can fit in. Study is ok but I wish I could do better nex sem. For me this sem is just a start for our long journey. At least, Im doing what I oweys wanted to do. My hope for the future, pass this foundation programme and fly up, up and away~

::this is bout….::

Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone

I’ll be waiting all there's left to do is run

You’ll be the prince and I’ll be the princess

Its a love story baby just say yes

Yes, its all bout love story. Mine..?? Nope. It’s a complicated thing okeyh. Lets skip this part~

::who-i-hope-to-remain-buddies-wit-me::

Act there are people that I wish I cud meet up with durim this olidey but due to not-so-considerable-thing I cudnt. Im not angry or wut, but a lil upset maybe. But somehow I hope this distance will never affect our frenship *providing Im not good in long-distance relationship. But believe me dat I’ll oweys by ur side.

When you're alone 'cos I'm away

Don't be sad

Don't be afraid

I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you

Like I always do

::closing::

I met Sham..again! On Sunday 28th Dec, 1045 pm, outside my Abah’s office. I was in the car. Act it was his bro-in –law who wanna meet my Abah. Then out of all sudden he was oso there. Then he came to the car and greets my Ummi. And I saw he jenguk2 in the car and I gave him the sweetest-shy2-cat-smile-eva. Haha~ And I heard he talked n talked to my Ummi. But sorry Sham, our fams will never, eva, eva be lyk before again, and neither do us. So you can go now. Haha *evil-high-pitched-vampire-laugh*

But just now I just went shoppim *once again!! shoppim bajuuu~Hehe^^

That’s all what I can say bout my 2008 year. So is it great,so-so or bad? Owh, please don’t say bad. I think it’s a so-so. But I must say I like last year waaaaaaaaaaay more than this year. Miss all my dearies. Looking forward to meet some of them nex year. For those who has promise a visit to me, please come A.S.A.P! I’ll be waiting for you. And not to forget, thanx to Afiq who have came to Penang to visit me during my early days in Penang. Not gonna forget our 12-hours-exhausting-money spending-jalan2 around the pulau. Do come again nex year^^

Tonite I’ll be celebrating new year with Ally. Which Ally..?? Ally Iskandar lah. Hehe~ Luv him!

Whatever it is, just hoping nex year will be a very promising one

And btw, see ya nex year~

from me with a bunkface

No.no.. Im responding to this tag wit a smiley face okehs. Things I hate bout skool..?? I do love skool. Now n oweys. But there are things dat used to torment me during my skooldays. Here it goes^^

koko-kola

Okey, I really hate the kokurikulum things. I oweys think that that things were not beneficial since like…forever! I also dunno but that’s the truth. I feel like I was wasting my time and I never present at the koko meeting sincerely. Everytime was by force. Force of nature. Huhu ~

P.E period and Sport Day

First and foremost, jz want you to know that I cant be tolerate in sports. From the games during P.E to the tournament, I hate it! I also hate the ‘ujian kecergasan’ we used to have in skool. Hello, Im cergas enuf okey! I don’t think I need that crap. And Im afraid with ball. Yes,ball! It’s a nitemare when the ball is coming to you in high speed, or maybe more than the speed of light and bumps into you with a large momentum! And I cant run fast. That’s a big NO! So during my skooldays I used to feel low among my friends for I don’t participate much in sport. So say no to sport!!

History period

Honestly, history period never fails to make me feels sleepy. No matter what the teachers do, what they teach, what time, what style, I still feel sleepy. Yes, Im a sleepyhead, I admit but I never allow myself to sleep in class. In fact, history is the only subject that succeeded in making me break my principles. And now that Im in IPP, something has taken the ‘title’ from history. You know what?? Social studies!! Im sorry Mr CM, I’ve tried not to make a sleepy, blur, I-don’t-understand-anything face in ur class, but I cant hold the temptation, especially in our morning class. I promise to be a driver nex sem, no more passenger2 thing. Hehe^^

Mr. I’m-The-Senior-So-I-Can-Do-Anything

Okey Im changing the subject from things to a person here. Im seriously hate this guy. I dunnoe him at all. I met him during my first or second week in IPP. And he had been so DAMNED rude. He dunnoe me, and I dunnoe him. But since he thought that seniors don’t have to respect the juniors, then he was like showing off and being stuck up. Because I was still in my orientation week so I thought it would be so rude for me to talk back to him even tho he was acting crossing the line. But if he does the same thing again to me, Im not hesitate to teach him the lesson. Respect people, man..!! But when I think back of that incident I realized that somehow God oso created such trash and I shudnt act at the same level with him. I thank God that I didn’t do anything that day. So the lesson here is there are NO such thing that Im older, wiser and better..!!

p/s: lets call it a day..thx to mr reenkyra..haha^^

when macquarie meets portsmouth

Today is totally one of the best days during dis holiday. To meet yunee is what I really want since long time ago. I haven’t meet her for bout a year and today, after all conflicts and quarrelling, I made it to kb mall to see her.*but it is after she’s waiting for more than an hour and oledy finished her mangkuk of ais kacang. Its about 1.00 pm that time. Thx a lot to my cousin Hafiz for willingly send (and then fetch ) me there. If not Im sure I’ll be a hulk, throwing tantrums at home and so do yunee. I bet she’ll explode herself due to boredom and wrath. Keeping her waiting for dat long oledy drive her up d wall, kan yunee? hahaha~

Back to the title. When Mcquarie meets Portsmouth. But supposely the title is ‘when Macquarie meets Portsmouth and Queensland. Unfortunately Queensland cudnt make it there bcoz of something dat I oso not sure. And excited Ayunee is turning to a less excited yunee edi. Haish~So there goes the title.

Aryanna=Mcquarie

Yunee=Portsmouth

Nadya=Queensland

*based on our tesl twinning prog lol

We walk and walk and walk and as usual, SHOPPING! I spend 197rm today alone *providing I din go shopping for quite a long time, and the ATM machine generously gimme some money.wink2* I buy a shirt n a pair of shoes. Tired of walking here n there, we go to RasaMas and have our lunch (at 4.00 pm). Wanna noe wut I have? Aha, oledy forgot the name, but it taste like tomyam tuna. yummie2~ siyesly its super duper delicious and affordable tho*drooling* (in the meanwhile, we shared lotsa gossips, esp bout…! gee~ )

After that, walk2 some more. go to the bakery to buy donuts *abah yunee punyer* and earring for yunee’s besfren’s befday *d one who gives her laddoo. haha*clap hands! * Then go to buy cartridge for my printer (btw I got lotsa notes to print out). Then I send her out to get a taxi. But as the taxi pakcik offers a HIGH charge, she decides to take a ride wit the bus. So there goes the hugging2 scenes in front of kb mall main entrance. Hakhak^^

I walk inside, alone, heading to the other entrance (coz my cousin will be waiting for me there) and suddenly I see something. KFC. Then I remember of my bro. Haiyak! So I go and buy something. (It’s the variety bucket things okehs. There goes ma money T.T)Then I go outside and I see my kind-but-cruel cousin is oledy there. Yippie, dun have to wait for him! Then he nags bout me spending too much money. Do I? huhu. Like I care. Its my money btw. And he drives me home. Safely home, I called my Abah (at his office, worrying of me going out too long). Eat the KFC and discussing some wut-so-eva issues wit my cousin and then he left. Surprisingly my internet connection is getting better and Im able to post this entry. Yeay~

muah2 credits to:

::hafiz my cousin::

::ayunee::

::faten::

……for make it my day…….

p/s: it was YESTERDAY~

mirror mirror on d wall,ples help me!

It has been long since I last post something here. I just got nothing appealing enough to share wit you people. But there’s actually a problem, one that not suppose to be a problem but I’m the one who make it a problem. Okehs, straight to the point. I just diagnosed wit a fatal disease. Love bipolar. Sux rite? But as far as I know, there ain’t any remedy for this disease. It don’t even exist in any medic diction! Is it true that time heals everything? It may works to you but unfortunately not for me. Funny rite how some things we just can’t deny even tho we’ve tried so much?

Let me tell you the situation. There’s been this guy, X. He’s friend. A special friend of mine. But then, a new kind of explosive, subtle, beautiful disastrous feeling just pop out. And honestly, I hate it. You know how I don’t believe in friendàlover relationship since the ruptured of my relationship wit you-know-who. But now the situation is different. Coz you know wut, the X person is already taken. wtf?! So I guess in this case its so unlucky I’m in love wit my best friend.

This is never the way I want our relationship to be. But can you hold the temptation when your heart start to like somebody more than you should? How can I stop this feeling? Seriously I want us to stay this way. I don’t want it to change even a bit. And on top of that, there’s no way I’d steal somebody’s. As I believe so much that what goes around, comes around I wish not to do bad things to people. Or at least, do less bad things to people.(but the evil side of me said “who cares?” =D)

One more thing is that X also treated me very well. It’s not my fault alone. Who tell him to be so kind to me? Don’t he know that I easily melts with that kind of people? And now, who’s gonna responsible for all my damaged heart? Of course he don’t know my feelings towards him, if not I’m dead meat! Actually I’m trying so hard to keep a distance between me and him but since he has been so damn cool then we keep on going as usual. Hate this situation where the person is right here near us but we still cudn’t reach them. But he’s also making the thing worse by making things that people see as “putting an effort” *yunee’s opinion!. I cudn’t understand it any better so it keeps on hunting my days wit all those big question marks in my head.

As I said earlier, I think I’m the one who make this thing a problem and I also know that I shudn’t let it kills our relationship. I do love him, more than a friend but dats all. It’s obviously not love, I’ll take it as attraction. That’s how we react to opposite sex I think. So for now I declared myself clear from any distraction of heart problem. I’ll be his very best friend. The one he would never leave behind.

You're a part time lover and a full time friend

The monkey on your back is the latest trend

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

You are always trying to keep it real

I'm in love with how you feel

I don't see what anyone can see, in anyone else

But you

friendship marks a life even more deeply than love. love risks degenerating into obsession, friendship is never anything but sharing.

p/s: I love you

for those guys whos reading this post, it wasnt u okehs! dun worry..haha^^

my.love.hunter.is.missing

Actually I was searching for a text, I mean an article that I wrote before to publish in our LDV newsletter. Title: LOVE HUNTER. But unfortunately, couldn’t find it. There’s no way I’ve deleted it, coz I really like what I’ve wrote. Its kinda motivating but yet not boring to read. N worse comes to worst when I couldn’t rememba the name saved for that file. So I hv 2 search it MANUALLY. .

*searching*

*searching*

*searching*

….but still………

so I guess, no LOVE HUNTER, no publish~! I juz wanna share my thought bout people who hunts for love madly and desperately, until they are blinded by love *not by the chillman okeh :D Bout the article,yeah Im satisfied,at least its my 1st trial of all but unfortunately, NOTHING IS FLAWLESS. Theres a typing mistake,and its sooo obvious. BTW, how come ‘good’ can be ‘god’. *and I only realized it after it was published.Haiyak~~!! shame!shame!

Lil bit bout the article, its not that I think we shouldn’t hunt for love, no IM NOT! But its proper not to be too… *u noe what-- Be moderate la, God’s willing you’ll find what you’re looking for. Some people wait a lifetime to found their true love. Some are not. See, the future, life and span are not for us to see. Maybe its already here but you’re not seing. Who knows. I once read that “love is not love until u say it” but I also believe that “love makes mutes of those who speak most fluently”. Makes sense rite..?

I.AM.TALKING.BOUT.LOVE

Haha~! Cant believe Im the one writing this. Yes its me. The other side of me. *btw how many side I got?? Oso dunnoe. But still, I don’t believe in happy ending. You know why? Coz I believe in no ending. Beautiful things are never meant to end^^

Something to share:

TRUE LOVE CANNOT BE FOUND WHERE IT TRULY DOES NOT EXIST,
NOR CAN IT BE HIDDEN WHERE IT TRULY DOES…

ps: I love you

sincerely,
-me-

i am not yours.obviously.

U BETTER SEE THESE~~

it had been long snce i dont write sumthing,ryte?at least i think it is.emm bout the unseen,its not that something paranormal,not that okeh.its a bundle of pics that id love to share,something that i think you'd never see before coz i got many pics in my collection to be shown.to start,lets take a look at this cute lil girl below^^

WHO'S THAT GIRL?

Name:Nur Liyana Aqilah Mohamad Yunos.

Age:=-1 yrs old.(1990)

*yeah i know she's cute.and now that she's 19 edi,her cuteness remains^^haha.envy me..!

ANOTHER SIDE OF MY BROS

NI BOTH MY BROS.Aban n Adam.this is their normal look.Look adorable,ryte?

But then,they may change A LIL BIT to be like this...

haha.wuteva it is,i still love them.okeh?deal~~

NOW,MY BUDDIES

In pics:aryanna'me'-midie-saleh-huda

Location:Malacca Zoo

Year:2008

Whaddup:Finishing last bio experiment!

In pics:midie-aryanna'me'-huda-saleh-aimie-sarah-khad-wani-dil
Location:Outside kmm's koop,in front of kak mala's cc

Whaddup:makan eskrem afta lab bio

In pics:huda-afiq

Time:Ramadhan 2007,Miss kala's besday

Whaddup:Lazing around wit our party left-over*huda was happy*

*extra info:photographer=aryanna 'me'

NEXT,MY BELOVED ROOMATE!

In pics:Sarah-Aryanna 'me'

Location:Dataran Pahlawan,beside Mahkota Parade

Whaddup:We play panjat2 the train n actually there people watching us,but we dont care.eh,sarah cares,but i dont :D
Mood:Happy~~

In pic:Sarah-Aryanna 'me'-Ling Hui

Location:Padang Golf,way out of kmm.

Mood:Blends wit estacsy of wuteva things xD

eh jap,

Photographer:Aiza kesayanganku^^sori dear,xde gambar kamoo.nt akanku post a tribute 4 u okeh.

CLASS OF h4p6::

In pic:Sarah-Aryanna'me'-Azedah-Melya-Tan

Location:Bio lab of kmm,2nd floor(last class)

Whaddup:Pretending to discuss when someone point the lense to us.Tan is exploring my enfon.N oso taking his own pics using mine^^

MY ONE N ONLY BIG BRO.

In pic:Hafiz abangku.

Whaddup:Die ketiduran during chem's lecture.Me too,but im in d 2nd row.Could sleep,too near wit d lecturer^^

Location:DK2 of kmm(last row,middle side)

*maaf abgku,no offence k*

THE OTHER SIDE OF HIM

In pic:Hafiz-Aryanna'me'

Location:Bayview Hotel

Whaddup:Annual Dinner DM.I got the lucky draw.Yippie~~

LIFE AT IPP TERCHENTA

In pic:Tyra-Aryanna'me'

Location:Dewan Agung of IPP

Whaddup:My rumet n i wanna take d pic wit d prop 4 tesl nyte.But i look somewhere else n theres someone else in the pic.GRRRRRRRR~~

PEARLACE IN MEMORY

In pic:Aryanna'me'-Wawa-Tyra-Natrah

Location:Gua Kelam

Whaddup:Sight seeing wit wawa's sister!Thnx to her.Sporting gile kak aimi.Muah3^^

In pic:Aryanna'me' wit Manis the kuda

Location:Ladang Kuda tok sedare Wawa.Aku menumpang kaseh di sini.huhu.On d way nk g Padang Besar

Whaddup:Im so scared.but still,smile 4 d camera^^

In pic:Tyra-Aryanna-Natrah

Location:Not sure act,but otw to go to the bendang to see the paddy(this is tyra's main reason of goin there)

Whaddup:We borrow the pancing from a kid just 4 d photoshoot.Haha.We're obsessed wit pics.

Photographed by Wawa.


MORE n MORE

balik2 je from Perlis,kelaparan terase.So,call la dat pizza guy~~

I JUST LOVE HANGOUTS.

Location:Auditorium P.Ramlee

Whaddup:Watching theatre together2.Hv fun. Yeay^^

In pic:Me-Ridz-Tyra

Location:In d hall

Whaddup:The show is on!!

in front of p.ramlee's house

like this pic!

Overall,

Location:Perangin Mall

Whaddup:Gaming!But my pics are only pics.Only for dat purpose.Xreti gaming~!

TYRA N RIDZ.si gile lensa!

Whaddup:Mereka melarikan enfonku.Mereka menyalahgunakannya.Mereka memenuhkan memory fonku.Bt sume gmbr udah di delete olehku.Usaha mereka sia2^^

ps:wut a post.u hv no idea how long i take 2 finish this.njoy reading!

"a picture worth a thousand words"

he's turning seven^^

+gemok sket+

+kurus sket+

Cant believe he's turning 7 next year.So small,so much pampered.How come I dont realized my baby is so much grown up.Amirul Amin aka Aban,luv u so~~

isnt he looks adorable...?

ey,btw.I've found an intersting quote to share.From Albert Einstein^^

"gravitation is not responsible for people falling in love"

interesting,ryte..??Got lots more to share but maybe next time.Till then^^

LOVE IS EASY.HATE TAKES COURAGE

Man is a knot into which relationships are tied. ~Antoine de Saint-Exupéry, Flight to Arras, 1942, translated from French by Lewis Galantière

Having someone wonder where you are when you don't come home at night is a very old human need. ~Margaret Mead

Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow. ~Swedish Proverb

Remember, we all stumble, every one of us. That's why it's a comfort to go hand in hand. ~Emily Kimbrough

There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best.
~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

Oh, the comfort - the inexpressible comfort of feeling safe with a person - having neither to weigh thoughts nor measure words, but pouring them all right out, just as they are, chaff and grain together; certain that a faithful hand will take and sift them, keep what is worth keeping, and then with the breath of kindness blow the rest away. ~Dinah Craik, A Life for a Life, 1859

If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? And why are you waiting? ~Stephen Levine

Don't smother each other. No one can grow in the shade. ~Leo Buscaglia

Sticks and stones are hard on bones
Aimed with angry art,
Words can sting like anything
But silence breaks the heart.~Phyllis McGinley, "Ballade of Lost Objects," 1954

Assumptions are the termites of relationships. ~Henry Winkler

I like her because she smiles at me and means it. ~Anonymous

Someone to tell it to is one of the fundamental needs of human beings. ~Miles Franklin

You can kiss your family and friends good-bye and put miles between you, but at the same time you carry them with you in your heart, your mind, your stomach, because you do not just live in a world but a world lives in you. ~Frederick Buechner

Present your family and friends with their eulogies now - they won't be able to hear how much you love them and appreciate them from inside the coffin. ~Anonymous

Piglet sidled up to Pooh from behind. "Pooh!" he whispered. "Yes, Piglet?" "Nothing," said Piglet, taking Pooh's paw. "I just wanted to be sure of you." ~A.A. Milne

I felt it shelter to speak to you. ~Emily Dickinson

Are we not like two volumes of one book? ~Marceline Desbordes-Valmore

Trouble is part of your life, and if you don't share it, you don't give the person who loves you enough chance to love you enough. ~Dinah Shore

Lust is easy. Love is hard. Like is most important. ~Carl Reiner

LETS PLAY NUMBER

1.jason^^
2.syahmi nasri
3.hanim ayune
4.nadya aya
5.adilah almi
6.ridzvogue
7.saleh sley
8.tyra atiyah
9.mr redza
10.nor afiq

1. how did u meet no. 4?
–we're schoolmate in smip n mjsc pc^^
2. Do you have a crush on anyone up there?
–yup,i am with no 1 n was wit no 2^^
3. What would you do if you hadn’t met number 1?
–i'd never know hes that charming^^
4.What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
–aaaaa!ridz,hes my ex...!!!
5. How did you meet number 8?
–shes my rum8 snce my very 1st day in ipp^^

6. Is 2 one of your best friends?
–used to..err,act not so..close friend maybe^^

7. Whose number 9’s best friend(s)?
–owh my lecturer sometimes are secretive bout his life^^
8. Have you ever dated number 1?
–yes3~~its too good to be true^^
9. Do you miss number 4?
–yea~never seen her snce 2006 mayb...??
10.what do u think of number 6?
–the voguesssss eva^^
11.what do you think of number 7?
–very good friend.mish ya^^
12. who does number 3 like?
–this guy..emm,cudnt rememba his name^^
13. Have you ever been inside number 8’s house?
–nope.looking 4ward to^^
14. Do you trust these people?
–some yes^^

ITS.ME.AGAIN

Nothing to write,just a reflection on what had happened today.Actually its nothing special,as I mention below.No extraordinary thing I did.But the most incredible thing to happen is that I read a novel.Yeah,its incredible(at least for me) because I'v read a Malay novel.To be honest,I dunnoe the title(because its all torn).Honestly.But the story was good,at least it kept me reading until the end.Its not that Im not reading Malay novel,I am,err..not2^^I was~I dont even remember the last time I read a Malay novel.I used to,early secondary school maybe.But what I found bout Malay novel is that they have same(or maybe similar)storyline,n sometimes its just xmasuk akal.*typical*But this one is good I tell you^^haish I wish I know the title.Im gonna check it later on k^^Next is about the internet.The connection is not so good.Thats why I didnt spend much time on this lappy s usual.And for sure it gives my 2 little bro much time for gaming~To be true,theres more n more games are downloaded to my lappy this olidey for the 2 of them.But for sure its just kiddy2 games(providing my bros are only 6 and 4 yrs old).Semak je.Gonna delete them aftawards..Haha!!And the best thing is updating my blog.As you see,new look ryte?This is the real me,simple but yet desirable^^

wed.3rd dec.1210 pm

i realized something just now.yes,that im doing d same thing every single day since d holiday began.my days only revolve around:

1.eating

2.ym

3.blogging

4.studying es(dunnoe y im so much into lit)

5.fs

6.tv

7.sleep

8.berangan2

n no more^^d same routine everyday.poor me~haish

I KISSED A GIRL^^

This was never the way I planned

Not my intention

I got so brave, drink in hand

Lost my discretion

It's not what, I'm used to

Just wanna try you on

I'm curious for you

Caught my attention

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chapstick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

No, I don't even know your name

It doesn't matter,

You're my experimental game

Just human nature,

It's not what, Good girls do

Not how they should behave

My head gets so confused

Hard to obey

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked itI liked it,

Us girls we are so magical

Soft skin, red lips, so kissable

Hard to resist so touchable

Too good to deny it

Ain't no big deal, it's innocent

I kissed a girl and I liked it

The taste of her cherry chap stick

I kissed a girl just to try it

I hope my boyfriend don't mind it

It felt so wrongIt felt so right

Don't mean I'm in love tonight

I kissed a girl and I liked it

I liked it

I dunnoe why i keep listening to dis song all day.

Is it becoz...??

Owh~my bad!!

Tidak..tidak^^

Saya maseh normal~

N im taken^^

d.o.o.m.e.d

I juz cudnt agree more.its so damn true.Dont make someone a priority if they only make you an option.But what if someone treated you as if you're their priority,but the thing is you'll always be their option?Well,under certain circumstances,it might happen when you'll be like..an alternative maybe..but the thing is you yourself cudnt stop yourself from being an ALTERNATIVE because you love the way that person treated you.But here im not portraying myself as an alternative,not me ok..but somehow something happened in our life with or without us realizing it might kill us.And worse come to worst when we cudnt do anyhing other than to let it happen..

Or maybe we do try,but its not enough.You know like doing something that you dont wanna do,even though its for your own good.Love is to have,not to hold.Something that i'll remember forever.It means a lot to me.Yea,for not holding someone i really wanna hold..but having him close is the best thing that cud eva happen to me.And i'll keep that best thing(so far) until i found something better than my best thing.But is there any possibility for a better best thing to happen?I also wonder^^

Haish~this is also a killer statement.Like i say before,love is to have not to hold.So never give up hope.Theres always love all around us,or it maybe right beside us but we arent seeing..We're just looking~~

i am poem*oh im proud of it*

'I am' poem

I am awesome, nice person
I wonder what people think about me
I hear these people talking
I see these people pointing at me
I want them to see the real me
I am awesome, nice person

I pretend I didn’t hurt
I feel as if everybody loves me
I touch their heart with my charm
I worry for this maybe just a dream
I cry when they talk bad about me
I am awesome, nice person

I understand people will continue judging
I say that I know myself better than them
I dream of a day when they will accept me
I try to bring the best in me
I hope they will see who am I
I am awesome, nice person

*i wrote this poem in my ldv class wit miss letch.we were only given a short time to finish our poem so i guess this poem could be better if we're given enough time.but somehow i just love my poem as it really resembles myself*nama pon i am poem*haha~n what i like most bout this poem is that i'v been given opportunity to recite it in class n miss letch said "good poem".owh im honoured to hear that..luv miss letch*muah2*

a boy's love part 2

Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me, "I also want mummy to take this photo with her so that she will not forget me."
I love my mummy and I wish she doesn't have to leave me but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister."
Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly.I quickly reached for my wallet and took a few notes and said to the boy, "What if we checked again, just in case if you have enough money?"
"Ok," he said. "I hope that I have enough."
I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll, and even some spare money.
The little boy said, "Thank you God for giving me enough money."
Then he looked at me and added,"I asked yesterday before I slept for God to make sure I have enough money to buy this doll so that mummy can give it to my sister. He heard me." "I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mummy, but I didn't dare to ask God too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and the white rose."
"You know, my mummy loves white rose."
A few minutes later, the old lady came again and I left with my trolley. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn't get the little boy out of my mind.
Then I remembered a local newspaper article 2 days ago, which mentioned of a drunk man in a truck who hit a car where there was one young lady and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-assisting machine, because the young lady would not be able to get out of the coma.
Was this the family of the little boy?
Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young lady had passed away.I couldn't stop myself and went to buy a bunch of white roses and I went to the mortuary where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wish before burial.

She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rosein her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place crying, feeling that my life had been changed forever. The love that this little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to that day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk man had taken all this away from him.

a boy's love part 1

A good reminder: "Take time to appreciate what you have now." --Dont miss reading this one
On the last day before Christmas, I hurried to go to the supermarket to buy the remaining of the gift I didn't manage to buy earlier.
When I saw all the people there, I started to complain tomyself,"It is going to take forever here and I still have so many other places to go.Christmas really is getting more and more annoying every year.How I wish I could just lie down, go to sleep and only wake up after it..."
Nonetheless, I made my way to the toy section, and there I started to curse the prices, wondering if after all kids really pla ywith such expensive toys.
While looking in the toy section, I noticed a small boy of about 5 years old, pressing a doll against his chest. He kept on touching the hair of the doll and looked so sad. I wondered who was this doll for. Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him, "Granny, are you sure I don't have enough money?"
The old lady replied, "You know that you don't have enough money to buy this doll, my dear."
Then she asked him to stay here for 5 minutes while she went to look around. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand.
Finally, I started to walk toward him and I asked him who did he want to give this doll to."It is the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for this Christmas. She was so sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her."
I replied to him that may be Santa Claus will bring it to her, after all, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly.
"No, Santa Claus can not bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mother so that she can give it to her when she goes there."
His eyes were so sad while saying this.

"My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mummy will also go to see God very soon, so I thought that she could bring the doll with her to give it to my sister."
My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said, "I told daddy to tell mummy not to go yet. I asked him to wait until I come back from the supermarket."

not-so-hols!

when will diz hols end?im damn bored in here.i need something thrilling 2 do,but this maybe-7-weeks-hols is not promising as ever.dun have anything 2do,dun allowed 2 do part time job,no frens 2 hangout,no movie 2 watch,no thing 2 giggles at.id rather go for a whole week chaos doing assignment in skul than 2 hide behind dis screen dat i think started 2 ruin my eyes.oso rather get up at 7 for skul than to get up at 10 and still got nothing to do.owho~wut had happen 2 my life.i noe i'll be regretting it when im back in skul but 4 now,i really2 wanna go 2 skul.im killing myself due to boredom!!!!!!!

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

ice cream time afta bio lab
choral speaking


aimie's befday*roti canai party*

ini 4 befday miss kala

rehearsal 4 annual dinner

friends are those who we could cheerish all our life.in good and in bad.im blessed enough to meet with such wonderful friends along my 19 years breathing on this earth.n i cant afford 2 lose any of them*no FREN is an island*but my definition of friendship may differ from others.for me friendship is not about togetherness forever,its not bout who comes first or who cares most.its all about who came and never leave.in ma life id been facing this matter where my FREN leave me when i need them most.we ol noe dat friends for good time are everywhere,but when you're down?the one who stay n listen without even bother 2 give crappy advice is the one who v need.i owyz need sum1 2 stay beside me,listen 2 my talking without being bored and b ma shoulder 2 cry on.friends 4 me are family.iv been having my family fren since like..forever!id like 2 mention all but i noe i just cant.but hanx a lot 2 my beloved family.i luv u so much!h4p6 roxx!

*saleh-midie-afiq-wazir-tan-hafiz-huda-sarah-aimie-dil-khad-kak ema-kak ikin-kak ain-apple-mya-amelya-aisyah-zana-wanie-azedah*

start of sumthing neu~

owho now i got d chance 2 write..haha..but how im gonna start?hmm..let me c 1st k..should i introduce maself?huhu..im lyana aqilah-19 years old-dob on 13th sept-ma hometown is in kota bharu-currently studying in tesl program-luv pink-ma interest revolve around music,movies,eateries,photography and hangouts-love making frens-ma status is currently undefined*sigh*-i cant b tolerate in sport-luv reading mags n novels,but ma fav are cecilia ahern's-now studying in ipp penang,doin ma foundation-fav movie is the lifetime a walk 2 rememba-fav song wud b unintended*sigh again*-im fragile n easily broken-but somehow im oso lil bit craze+ blurr+funny+outspoken+talkative+

cruel+hard headed+egoistic+friendly+stack up sumtimes+lovable*evrybody loves me*..haha..enuf bout maself..tis is a pic of me n my fren ridz as we'r out 4 theatre..